Rok
Sex: Male
Age: 17
Star Sign: Libra
Ethnicity: Undisclosed
Religion: Atheist
Sexuality: Bisexual
Marital Status: In Relationship
Height: Undisclosed
Weight: Undisclosed
Location: Naples, Florida, United States
Signup Date: 28 Apr 08
Account Type: Free
Rating: 10.00
Overall Rating: 10
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about me
Almost everyone I know calls me psychotic and I easily scare people especially people who arent in love with darkness I find it entertaining to watch people go out of their way to get as far as the can from me without getting run over sometimes even cars XD otherwise i can easily be random, spacey an so hyper no one can keep up with me. I have a habit of disappearing when people look away an reappearing somewhere on the other end of the room/courtyard/hallway/w.e and they always wonderin how the hell i got there so fast an as usual i dont think about it an just know i walked there >.> tends to scare people alot cuz they didnt see me coming either ^^ I love wearing anythin black an i will steal ur chains if you mess with me wit em cuz i love chains. I have ALOT of rope and randoms items you can use to tie things with that ive collected out of sheer love for string/rope/chains. I tend to act alot like a cat when Im comfortable XD. Love to bite people an one of my favorite phrases is Bite Me! which most of my friends ask Where? When? How hard? even tho its not necessary cuz i dont care how hard you bite me it feels good :D another one i use very often is psh an i tend to act out loud wen im hyper an do stupid stunts including jumping friends out of know where just to scare the shit out of em XD
16 gonna be 17 in...2 months an 26 days :) (startin June 29th).
 | You scored as Biting, When it comes to being kinky, your biggest turn on is biting. You love the ectasy of teeth sinking into your flesh, and are probably willing to return the favor. Sex just isn't sex without using your teeth.
Biting | | 100% | Blood | | 83% | Blind Folds | | 67% | Whips | | 58% | Bondage | | 50% | Chains/Handcuffs | | 33% |
What's Your Kinky Turn On?
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My Nicknames, Shadow Vampyre, Shadow, Shadow Chaos, Shadow Pheonix. An Especially Rok. an more that i don't feel like writin right now so maybe later ill write it if a certain amount of people want me to... |
interests
writer of dark poetry an anime fanfics, being crazy, Rebelious, Destructive, Torturous
I have a habit of singing (screamo) to screamo songs in english and japanese XP
... I also like war games, MMORPG's especially ones with Rogues, Assassins, the like. scarin the shit out of people^^
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likes
| Darkness, Vampires, Anime, Werewolves, Magic, SWORDS, Daggers, DRAGONS, PHEONIX, WOLVES! pretty much anything and everything destructive and torturous... stupid stunts, getting bit, AMPS (energy drink), monsters! but prefer amps XD, My second family, school often cuz i get to see my friends an i love to piss off the teachers, switch blades r fun to play wit too... fire XD im not a pyromaniac really i control those urges but i love burnin myself its fun :D, Japanese, English , and German music preferably screamo or at least hardcore rock, rave techno so on, Satoshi an Kaoru :)... |
dislikes
| Dark haters (preps/chavs old peoples/adults too) pretty much people who hate you for who you are or cuz u love the darkness. My birth family all but my awesome cuz heather (^_^). the light >>. when i get in trouble although 80% of the time AT LEAST its not my fault but i got blamed on or they believe its me or cuz im a bad rolemodel an dont do shit wit my family or sibs or they start actin like me. The fact that majority of the time i get yelled at for some of the stupidest shit like locking the front so that my step dad has to use his key to get in wen he gets home when its my mom who locked the door. being stuck inside alone all day |
favourite music
Satoshi (Singer, Girugamesh XD)
» Date . 2006.07
» Translated by . Adrienne
Birthday . October 13th, 1984
Blood Type . Type O
Birthplace . Osaka
Height ・ Weight . 168cm・53kg
Shoe size . 24.0cm
Ring size . ?
Habit, Favourite Phrase . I'm hungry
Favourite colours . Black
Cigarette brand . Cigarettes are death
Favourite brands . The skull look
Favourite perfume to use . Smelly
The cell phone brand and ring tone you're using . P901i
Least favourite foods . Carrots, green peas
A present that makes you happy . Accessories
A present you were glad to give to someone . I don't give things to people
Favourite type of the opposite sex . Must be cute
Least favourite type of the opposite sex . An irritating person
Favourite girl's fashion . Must be cute
Ideal date course . Karaoke
An action a girl does that startles you . When they put their legs together
A name you would give a child . Akira
A treasured item . Mic
Worries . I'm eating too much
A time when you feel happiness . When I'm eating
The person you currently want to meet the most . No one
If you had three wishes, what would you wish for .
① Money
② Money
③ Money
The biggest prank you played on the other members I've done a lot of things
A dream that left an impression . Oneman
Something that recently emotionally moved you . A TV documentary
Something that recently made you angry . That old man on the train
Something that has recently been on your mind . Nothing
The way you spend a day off . Sleep
Presently, what kind of room do you live in? . Rock
Currently who is your favourite artist . Kamiki Aya
An artist that you respect .
The first CD that you bought . 「LA・LA・LA LOVE SONG」
The first live you went to . I forget
When was your first public performance . High school
The first song that you copied .
A Girugamesh live that left an impression on you .
The Girugamesh song that you're most pleased with . 「Kaisen Sengen」
A mistake that happened during a live . I had a cold
A way to relieve stress . Live
Outside of playing music, the most important thing is . Feeling
Favourite motto . Survival of the fittest
A word to your present self . You're eating too much
A word to yourself in ten years . You're bald
A word to all the members .
» Gt.: HORSE!!
» Ba.: Leader
» Dr.: Cat
Your future aspiration . Charisma
Hardcore, both heavy an death metal, emo, SCREAMO(XD), gothic, Techno
Here are some of my fav bands (well da ones i remember -_-)
-GIRUGAMESH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!XXXXDDDD
-DIR EN GREY!!! XD
-Evanescence
-Aiden
-Ragnarok
-Beneath The Sky
-Atreyu
-On the Last Day
-A Day To Remember
-Drowning Pool
-Endwell
-Papa Roach
-Three Days Grace
-Lostprophets
-Fly Leaf
-Amon Amarth
-My Chemicle Romance
-Marilyn Manson
-Trapt
-Sum 41
-Godsmack
-Rob Zombie
-Puddle of Mud
-Disturbed
-Nonpoint
-Linkin Park
-System of a Down
-The Human Abstract
-Megadeath
The Nameless by Slipknot
Pathetic (benign)
Accept it (undermined)
Your opinion (my justification)
Happy (safe)
Servant (caged)
Malice (heart of weakness)
No toleration
Invade (kill me)
Enraged (in minutes)
Don't condescend (don't even disagree)
Decide (decay)
Dissapoint (delay)
You suffered then, now suffer under me.
Obsession, take another look.
Remember, every chance you took.
Decide, you live with me
Or give up - I thought you want to be free
(Don't go) I never wanted anybody more then I wanted you
(I know) the only thing I ever really loved, was hate.
Anyone (NO) Anything (YES) Anyway (FALL)
Anybody (MINE) Anybody (TELL ME)
I want (YOU) I need (YOU) I'll have (YOU)
I won't LET ANYBODY HAVE YOU
Obey (ME) Believe (ME) Just trust (ME)
Worhip (ME) Live for (ME)
Be grateful (NOW) Be honest
(NOW) Be precious (NOW) Be mine
(JUST LOVE ME)
Possesion (feed my only vice)
Confession (i wont tell you twice)
Decide - (either live for me)
Or give up - I thought you want to be free.
(Don't go) I never wanted any body more then I wanted you
(I know) the only thing I ever
really loved, was hurting you.
(Don't go) I never wanted any body more then I wanted you
(I know) the only thing I ever really loved, was hate.
Stay inside the hole, let me take control. (Dominate)
You were nothing more, you were
something less (innocent)
Something has to give - something
has to break (omnipresent)
Fingers on your skin, let me savage in
YOU DESERVE IT.
YOU DESERVE IT.
YOU DESERVE IT.
YOU DESERVE IT.
(Don't go) I never wanted any
body more then I wanted you (i
wanted you)
(I know) the only thing I ever
really loved, was hurting you. (was
hurting you)
(Don't go) I never wanted any
body more then I wanted you (i
wanted you)
(I know) the only thing I ever
really loved, was hate.
You're mine (you are you are)
You're mine (you are you are)
You're mine
YOU'RE MINE
Japanese songs translated to English
Cage by Dir En Grey
impatient the masochist's blood runs in my veins I wait for you, the sadist
if I can do it with a poisonous kiss
because of sorrow I cannot see virtue you are the last mother
the memory buried so that you won't realise the first mother
even though the clock turns backwards the sin I've committed can't be changed
the first and last person who understood me is burned into my memory
see me resisting strongly and then kindly forcing a decision
I can never tell you
the creaking sound of leather hurts me let's make the wound even deeper
you, deeply jealous are you always so cold-hearted?
even now I don't want to forget the abuse of my childhood
why don't I have a mother? tell me...
someday I'll realise kindness inside the mother-like "cradle"...
because of anguish I cannot see before me my last mother
at least, so that you won't realise the first mother
even though the clock turns backwards the sin I've committed can't be changed
the first and last person who understood me is destroyed
were you too kind to me? the reflection of a trauma from long ago
I destroyed you, the last one am I a sadist?
Girugamesh!!! XDDD
Aimai na mikaku-
I don't know where to listen to, to my fingers that are attracted by the hair on your neck
Or to my arms that push you away
I can't do anything else than bending down my head...
This bow that has lost its taste and this sensation that I've interrupted when I tilt back
Of course I want to fill the gap, if the suffering would then
I don't feel anything anymore...uncountable memories that abandon
If I could lie to myself to improve the present, I would certainly do it
One single grain of the black dust falls and affiliates with the others
The sharp fingernail trembles because of the rusty voice, strong and weak
Ambiguous words, ambiguous gazes
Ambiguous stories, averted in an ambiguous manner
I don't feel anything anymore...uncountable memories that abandon
If I could lie to myself to improve the present, I would certainly do it
If this luck would last forever...
When will I find my laughter??
The time has stopped, the world eludes, the fading traces are twisting
They are disappearing in the distance, the warm heart, the rusty voice, strong and weak
Having Betrayed Is Why-
Why? Before you tell me your answer
You didn't tell me about breaking up...?
"It was painful" you say
With your too late excuses
That... is more painful than this!?
Having betrayed is why
I just genuinely treasured
you...
The hand I held...coldly unraveled my voice is wasted towards hades
I want to forget I can't forget Searching for your voice... for the feeling of you
Indecent and candid desire
You pretended to be trapped
Wrapped up and hidden in a poisonous fog of sins
Search for love and indulge in love
What overflowed, was the rain of loneliness
Why did you appear in front of me
And betray me?
I gave you "from now on"
You gave me despair
Its painful.... Its painful... Its painful....
You who I love... You who I treasure...
You who I joined together with from the heart
Waved your small hand painfully with a "goodbye"you quietly abandoned me...
Deceived Mad Pain-
Only birth is ambiguous
If you follow a path hesitantly
I would even fake my actual suffering
Licking the sweet honey out of the variable and disgusting receptacle
Averting my eyes, shivering, and then I repeat this utopia once again
Deceived mad pain
Pain of the embracing, "feeling of superiority"
The answer of this weird question "feeling of emptiness"
If this is the answer, I won't ask anymore...
But my aching ears
Don't hear anymore, nor the answer either, not even if someone would beat me with it
Fight against yourself and decay; that's what you want, isn't it? Come on, suffer, now!
It will break...fall and burst
If this would rule off this absurdity
Mad Rain…Mad Rain...Mad Rain...Mad rain
I feel the end coming
But...for me who forgot how to laugh, this simple step is just too hard to make
I don't have the courage anymore to make this simple step
If this is the answer, I won't ask anymore...but please tell me why...
Why do you agonize me? How many times must I repeat this fault
Throw away this indistinguishable feeling at least
Rip yourself, fall and burst
And all this absurdity
Jarring Fly-
While she's bustling around me, she sprays her poison
And present her grotesque body. Why do you disturb me?
She makes me believe that she understood and she steals my calm
I'm drowning in melancholy and losing myself...
Jarring fly "vanish"
Hopelessly I'm straying through the darkness
I have even forgotten or suppressed
Where have I been until now?
The "words" and the "anger" disappear bit by bit
Found between the washed out wreckage
Is this you, this tiny rest of dirt?
Jarring fly "vanish"
Hopelessly I'm straying through the darkness
Even if I have forgotten or suppressed
I'm protecting this fragment in my hand
The "words" and the "hope" come back bit by bit
Shadan-
This is what is called fear: It's building up a wall in front of our eyes
As if it thinks that we are too normal to go that far away
AH...open this door
You can hear it too, don't you?
The darkness begins to disappear
I'm living there, open this door immediately
He glows, glows, and he arose. Yes, this pain that's calling me softly...
AH...I will destroy everything
There's no reason not to do it
Because there are men like you
I'm laughing high and loud facing the pain of the chain of the past years
She wouldn't suffer that much, if she would stop it
Now that you're not here anymore to hold her back
That's the spectacle I can't see anymore
That you're observing through this little chink
AH...I will destroy everything
There's no reason not to do it
Because there are men like you
Look! The interrupted landscape fades quietly and disappears
Fenced voice, screaming voice that suffers from the hopeless ideal...
I'm laughing high and loud facing the pain of the chain of the past years
She wouldn't suffer that much, if she would stop it
Now that you're not here anymore to hold her back
Goku by Girguamesh (FAVORITE SONG OF ALL TIME) the original lyrics-
Feeling should disappear
Like a beast without love
The waist is shaken intense
since there is such a thing
all people are troubled by despair
Die in prison
"Hey you!! why do people fall in love?"
"Yes It will be for damaging and betraying"
break altogether!!
even if what will be there
nobody is already stopped
Die in prison
Yokubou koukotsu mei sou ranzatsu
kasanaru kanjou mayoi mawari kudake ochiru
Feeling should disappear
Die in prison
Yokubou koukotsu mei sou ranzatsu
koisa suru kanjou nandomo nandomo surechigau
Kizukiage kowasu kurui tsuzukete kono mi wo kogasu
kasumi iku honnou kousa suru kanjou
shinjiru na... kizu wo okasu dake
Die in prison
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