It's a girl. I just get the feeling she does because she doesn't really say hi/good morning to anyone else other than the manager and assistant manager. She uses my name when she greets me and wear a big smile.

I think she's attractive, I just don't really wanna get involved.

She can usually say more than 5 words to me as compared to any other employee. It's a nice feeling and everything, but awkwardness is everywhere among the employees.

Good-Vibes wrote:

well if it goes anywhere, I want to know. (I'm curious like that) *smiles*

I will. Though, the main reason I won't make a move is because I don't know if she's single or not, but I won't ask if she is.

You gotta relax, it is not like you are going to die or anything, and if you aren't going to die, then there is nothing to worry about.

In high school I really didn't know what I wanted to be. During my junior year in my ROP health class I just said I wanted to be a doctor just to humor and please my teacher. For a short while I was (mindlessly) committed to it because I liked the idea of being able to give someone the gift of life, but then just lost interest. A few years ago I realized that doctors may be able to give the gift of life, but it doesn't mean that they will. They're getting paid for it, so it's not a gift... it's a trade. No one should ever have to pay for life. If I was dying I would accept it rather than pay to have my life "saved". However, I would forever be indebted to whoever paid to have my life "saved" as it would have been done out of the bottom of their heart.

When my aunt was dying a week before I turned 14 it angered me seeing her life and suffering being prolonged. She had lived a long life but as we all know, people inevitably die. It saddens me that most doctors won't "save" lives out of the bottom of their hearts without getting paid. It saddens me that doctors get paid whether or not a patient lives, but it pisses me off that doctors get paid to prolong lives that are coming to an end anyway. But hey, everyone wants and needs money, right? It begs the question... if someone dies while a doctor is trying to "save" them for free will it be because the doctor really couldn't "save" them or will it be because they weren't being paid?

Everyone has big hospital bills at the end of their life, their children don't get a cent.

Life is priceless, it should not be paid for.

Her dying hours should have been to teach me how to say good bye.

I think I'm finally ready to let go.

Damn has my life turned out entirely different from what I had ever planned.

They say that before you can fix a problem, you must first admit that there is a problem. I have admitted my problem many, many times, yet fixing it is never accomplished. I finally quit trying to fix it and focused on why it is still a problem. Behavior analysis at its finest. Look at the root of the behavior, the function of the behavior, and you can figure out how to fix the behavior. The best way to do it is to introduce a new behavior, a healthy and acceptable one, that gains the same results. But what do you do when the same results just cannot be had any other way?

After 10 (ish) years, we finally get a 2nd chance at a relationship. I refuse to let the opportunity to pass this time.

Good-Vibes wrote:

My wisdom tooth removal wasn't to bad, but these stupid stiches are bothering me

That and the fact that I wouldn't stop bleeding for 2 days is what bothered me.

Blood in mouth tastes good.

I don't mention this very often, but I was "diagnosed" with A.D.D. when I was 7, and I was put on Adderall for the next 12 years... and it benefitted me in unintended ways, but I felt it was also causing some damage to my mental health, which is why I stopped taking it, but that's besides the point. The thing is I really don't think I ever had A.D.D. because it only became a problem when I wasn't paying attention in school. My explanation for that is that I genuinely wasn't interested, and if I'm not interested in something I'm just not going to pay attention. It's not a mental disorder, I'm just stubborn. Even if I actually did have A.D.D. I never used it as an excuse for anything being that I didn't really think it was even a problem... actually I have to admit, I used it as an excuse to stay on Adderall, and I will admit that I abused that medication a few times. Jeez, I've just now realized how deceptive and manipulative I can be.

Did the mEDS make you fat?

Vampariah wrote:

Did the mEDS make you fat?

The meds actually caused loss of appetite, which lead to me being so skinny and able to exercise for long periods of time. When I quit the meds my body realized how much it had been starving, so I ended eating too much.

Good-Vibes wrote:

I'll never admit to my best friend, how far I've dived or what I do to stay a float

That sounds like half a confession.

Sounds like a normal man.

Ce La Vie