steady your heart please.

Unnatural Disaster

I'll crash through your forests
I'll level your cities
Just like Katrina I'll wash you clean like a disease
There ain't no stopping me but try if you please
I wanna see you praying on your knees
No gods or higher powers can save you from me
Like fire to an empire I'll swallow you up
Burn you alive from the inside and make you spit up blood
my dagger-like words will cut you up

This is an UNNATURAL DISASTER
Maybe you should try RUNNING FASTER
I am your new SADISTIC MASTER
Your only words are "YOU FUCKING BASTARD!"

On the pile of bodies you're just another one
Kiil so many build it up till I block out the sun
Maniaclly laughing and having so much fun
No remorse I'll slaughter everyone
Like rabbits to my wolf I've got you all on the run
It's finally night and I'm almost done
My kill count almost seven billion

My fire, her heart

There's nothing wrong with feeling weak
even the strongest still fall to their knees
listen closely now to the words i speak
and from your pain youll be set free

i know that you've been hurt so many times
and that deep down inside yor mind
you tell yourself youll be just fine
you'll make girl just keep on trying
you can cry if you need ill stay by your side
every single day and every single night

One day everythings gonna go your way
and i cant wait to see your face
when you make it out and everythings okay
oh celinah, please trust what I say.

Its been a while since ive see nyou sad,
finally free from all the pain you had
And now its over, fuck I'm glad.
Oh Celinah, your heart made it out intact.

(for my sweeheart)

fission mailed

There never was a day when I thought, I'd look you in the eyes and say, good god. You held me for so long in, your palm. I guess I really shouldn't have been, so shocked. You were always right, and I was, so wrong. I cannot believe it was true, every single word that they said about you. I always thought you were a prize, but now I know youre just a price, that I paid, every day of my life.

time waits for no one.

hold fast
we're going down,
we've been moving way too fast
to turn around,
hold on
I cant breathe,
I'm suffocating,
please wait for me.
how could you do it?
you nearly gone and blew it.
I can't believe you just put me through it.
can we please stop this rollercoaster?
I've been through this over and over.
I know things will get better and, pain can't last forever.
Everything will work out as planned, trust me it all gets better.
There are times when it feels like the water is rising,
That's when my strength comes out from hiding,
it makes me feel as if I can grab the horizon.
Ill make it through and keep on breathing.
there's nothing left to keep my heart from beating.
The suffocating feeling is all but fleeting.

Signs of a Struggle

the things ive seen,
oh the things I've seen
the things I've seen as a teen
WILL NEVER LEAVE ME
They will always stick with me
they will always stick with me
it will always haunt me in my dreams
it continues taunting me,
forever lingering it seems
The only way you scar me
Is the only you never depart me
The only way I'll heal from what you've done,
Is the same old way I always deal with things
avoid the truth (don't trust the lies)
bury the secret (six feet under)
hide the evidence (see through the disguise)
never reveal it (in two my mind is torn asunder)
if only you could see,
the dark inside of me.

Kara Scene

Kerosene, kerosene
youll be the death of me it seems
she pours the last drop and leaves my body at the scene
Kerosene, kerosene
walking away she drops the lit match, never once does she scream
oh no...
i can barely see
smoke rising steadily
choking, while i breathe
can anyone please save me?

ashes and cinders
blood and flesh
burning embers
is all that is left

i can no longer see
smoke rising steadily
no longer choking, no longer breathing
it was too late to save me

You say never, I'll say true

Sever the chord between friends and enemies,
You’ve walked that path, way too many times.
When you brought lies and poison into our friendship,
That’s when you crossed the line.
The withered flowers on your nightstand,
Should’ve been the first sign.
Your transgression so aggressive,
This wound will never heal with time.

[two times] I don’t want to hear your excuses,
No not anymore.
Don’t come looking for me cause,
You’ll never find what you’re looking for.
Find what you’re looking for.

[break down] You fucking coward!
Don’t you dare, turn your back on me.
Forever means never in your mind,
You’ve become a ghost in my memory.
I threw away the key to your lock
What’s left of you, will rest at the bottom of the sea.

To be Bound by blood

You ripped off my headphones
Screaming at me to never let you go
It scared me -
That look you had in your eyes
Mascara tears streaming down black as you cried
Your words struck such a resounding blow to my heart
As I took your face in my hands
I whispered "Not even death can tear us apart."
We'll live well past when fire engulfs the lands.
Though sobs and weeps I heard you mutter,
heard you speak,
"I'd die for you"
Your words were deadly stong
Though your voice was quite weak.
There's no need to fill your head or your heart
With such a powerful fear,
There's no other like you, you're my pet, remember dear?
Just look at the marks upon thy neck
And you'll see, you keep my beast in check.
It was hell before you, and heaven afterwards.
You rescued me from the grave to which i was anchored.
I'll press my lips and close my eyes
Your blood will creep down that porcelain flesh
As the moon sits dominating the open skies
The rest of the night a blur of crimson coated passion and sweat

fuck your dreams

"fuck your dreams, I'll be the boy of your nightmares"

take the pills that make you sleep
fall under the spell of forfeit and defeat
come to me my darling hear my speech
it'll be painful and it'll make you weak
but youll condemn yourself to the belief
that you're alone and stuck with me
trust me when i say that you'll never be free

As you rest and fall prey to the darkness
I'll show you things you cannot bear
trust me love you're no princess
fuck your dreams I'll be the boy of your nightmares

I bet you never planned for this
But hark, you don't seem to care anyway
I'll bear my fangs and lick my lips
you can do nothing now, save maybe pray
I'll sink into your neck with my hands on your hips
like a wolf out for blood hear me bay

As you rest you'll never escape this place
I love you but i'll fill you with fear
Now you're here you can never forget my face
fuck your dreams I'll be the boy of your nightmares

you can try to plead
but i'm filled with greed
and a trail of blood is all i seek
you can cry out, you can scream
but baby truly you're stuck with me

fuck. Is this my fantasy or your nightmare?

meep :3

as i release them from their cold metal chamber
they freefall to the floor in slow motion.
each one hits the ground with a "ting ting"
every sound is sharper and louder in this empty soulless house.
i'm sitting in the hollow darkness,
i cant stand the lights as their holy fluorescence burns
my poor tear ridden eyes.
the only light now is the muzzle flash, and
every time it flashes a smile another little soldier
finds its way across the filthy room tearing through
the weak drywall. the dust and pieces of plaster look like
blood and flesh being tossed in different wild directions.
as ugly as it all looks i find it to be the only beauty left.
your face is no longer recognizable, so the comfort i seek
shall be in my new best friend. Or rather, in his art.
His name is carved into his rough metallic hide. It says "Glock."
My hand clutches the letter containing your bitter goodbye
crushed and crumpled like so many of my feelings.
Your fucking words are a mockery. You never loved me.
Glock's artwork forming in the dead wall every time he smiles
is my new passion. He shall be my temple now, and oh how i will pray.
Finally I'm finished painting the wall with my emotions.
Glock made me a smiley face. How sweet.


fuck...i need a cigarette