I'm in love, but not for long.

...

Vacant
Stare at me with no emotion
Monotone
Do you even believe what comes out of your mouth?
You've lost your color.
Blend in with the sick and the dead.
Stifle your sobs and choke back your tears
This world will break you down

...

To love is a lie
Honesty is overrated
I love this delusion
I love this state of mind
Your voice it lulls
And calms me
From the inside
I wish that you and I...

And this is where I close my eyes
I start to pretend
You're such a tease
But you're all I wish to be
And to be with
If only you and I...

This is where I draw the line
Our story will never begin
It's better that way
For it also won't have an end
And in doing this, no attachments.
But I can't help letting my thoughts drift
What if you and I...

...

I'm waiting for everything to change
And fall apart
I'm watching my life waste away
The minutes fly by
And I find that the more I cling to the past
The farther away I distance myself from you
I could have sworn the sun was just shining
The moon looms above me
I've grown so tired
Where did the day go?
Where did you go?
I lost you in my nostalgia
While I remembered what was,
I forgot about what is
And here it comes,
Everything's falling apart.

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When he goes,
He takes part of me with him
I'm broken
Split
Divided by desire
Push him away
Never out of arms reach
Co-dependent
He is my enabler
He stalks my dreams
Whether I'm at peace or restless
Detox
I'm sick without him
I'm a ghost of who I once was
But he's dangerous
Destroying me slowly
To hang on or to let go

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Smiles
That break my heart
Eyes
That see so much deeper
What I wouldn't give
To see his face light up
To hear his heartbeat
To hold him close
Do you believe in second chances?
How about firsts?
Just one kiss
One more moment
One life
And I want to spend every minute
With you

...

Sweet morning light
Blind my enemies
Daybreak comes
And I may wake
Pulled from my dreams
Rested
Content
Sun shine down
Show me the way

...

Cutting edge.
She lives on the edge.
Stands on the edge of the world.
She reaches out to the heavens.
She falls down.
Down she falls.
We all fall down.
Viscious lies.
She lies.
She lies in the dirt.
Broken.

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It's so simple
The way things work
Yet so complex
The way the sun dips down in the sky
The way the moon radiates, yet the night stays dark
The way shadows creep across the ground
Reaching
Growing and shrinking as the world turns
The way the wind stirs the leaves
The way the rain falls
The way stars shine from far off in the galaxy
Glowing
Twinkling in the evening, and disappearing in the day.
So simple.
So complex.

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The night is heavy
The darkness suffocates these streets
The lights are out
The air is still
The silence is opressing
There's no movement
Even the stars seemed to have burnt out
Time stands still
The sun will never shine again
Not here
Not in this place

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I won't be taken down so easily
I'll still be standing in the end.
Their fallen bodies at my feet
Slain so quickly
No protests from the weak
I want to believe we all still have a purpose
I know mine.
But I can't see yours.