Ok..so...here it goes...FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK SHIT FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK...i FUCKING hate this fucking bum fuck shitty ass town....i keep leaving and it keeps pulling me back in like some black hole.
i fucking hate people that can't do things for themselves.....it pisses me off so fucking bad....but hey...i asked for this right? I knew what i was gettig....but seriously...even for my fucking birthday could you at least take the initiative to look up a movie time..possibly ask mommy dearest for a few bucks instead of me dipping out of my dwindling funds...but no....lol mr. wait to the last fucking minute so everything turns to shit and i'm pissed off for most of the goddamn day...*sighs*....
BUT HEY NOTHING EVER GOES SMOOTHY FOR MY BIRTHDAY....NEVER COMPLETELY HAPPY....and after i have to drive..and pay for everything...you don't even act like you want to be there.....wtf....are you serious?
OH AND TO THE PEOPLE WHO ARE "FAMILY" and "FRIENDS" WHO OBVIOUSLY DON'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT YOU IF YOU'RE NOT IN COLLEGE OR HAVE A FUCKING CAREER...YOU KNOW WHAT...FUCK YOU....I NEVER EVEN REALLY GAVE A DAMN I THE FIRST PLACE....JUST SIT ON YOUR FAT ASSES AND STAY THE FUCK OUT OF MY GOD DAMN FUCKING LIFE!!! OK ^_^
I'D RATHER BE A FRIENDLESS HOMELESS ORPHAN THAN BE ANYTHING TO ANYONE...-_-....of coarse i'm a nothing to everyone so wtf does it matter?
I always thought of myself as better or at least different than everyone in this hillbilly shit town/state....then i look in the mirror and under all of the makeup and clothes....i'm a FUCKING LOSER JUST LIKE EVERY LAST ONE OF THEM.
I have hopes, and goals....but i don't know how to reach them...
"why couldn't you just stay in school" mother says....sure mom....kill everyone there and the strong urge to commit suicide is a great way to stay there....forever....
I'M A HOPELESS FAILURE....I DIDN'T WANT TO BELIEVE IT BUT IT'S FUCKING TRUE....I'M A GOD DAMN LOSER JUST LIKE EVERYONE SAYS.....I WANT TO SLIT THEIR THROAT WHEN THEY ONLY TELL THE TRUTH....
FUCK THIS SHIT....I MIGHT AS WELL BECOME A FUCKING STREET WHORE BECAUSE APARANTLY THAT'S ALL I'M GOOD FOR....LOL....FUCK......LOL....FUCK ME....
why does suicide sound so appealing....why can't i just succeed at something just thiS once...
SHIT........FUCK..........FUCK...............FUCK............
SO....BACK TO BEING A FUCKING WHORE........YEAH I'M A SLUT...NOT TO BE TRUSTED.....EVEN IN THE EYES OF THE ONLY PERSON YOU CARE ABOUT.....BUT HEY THAT'S OK RIGHT?....It's just me.....not that it fucking matters....
IF I COULD I WOULD SCREAM IT INTO YOUR FACE...TRY TO MAKE YOU BELIEVE ME.....I'M NOT AS BAD AS I SEEM....
You knew what you were dealing with.....do i fucking care....about you...yes.....
DOES IT FUCKING RIP ME APART WHEN YOU CALL ME A LIAR EVERYFUCKING DAY FOR NO REASON.....JUST THE WORDS OF A FUCKING CUNT AND YOUR ALREADY TWISTED VIEW ON SOMETHING THAT YOU DON'T KNOW A GOD DAMN THING ABOUT?
YOU DON'T THINK I CARE....BUT HONESTLY....DO YOU?...
I PUSH YOU AWAY A LITTLE BIT....AND YOU PUT A GOD DAMN MILE BETWEEN US..
WHEN I NEED YOU...I WANT YOU TO TALK TO ME...CHEER ME UP....WHAT DO I GET?.....NOT A DAMN THING.....A "WHATEVER" OR "DON'T TALK TO ME"
OH YEAH...THAT REALLY SHOWS YOU FUCKING CARE.....lmfao.....KILL ME....
I'M SO SICK AND TIRED OF THIS DRAMA BULLSHIT....THE FUCKING DEPRESSED EMO KIDS....
I CAN'T GET AWAY FROM IT....IT'S LIKE A FUCKING PLAGUE...
SO YEAH...TO PUT IT ALL IN A SHORTER VERSION.....I'M A FAILING LOVELESS WHORE WHO COULDN'T CARE LESS ABOUT ANYONE BUT HERSELF....OH AND A FREAK....
IS THAT RIGHT SOCIETY? IS THAT FUCKING CORRECT?......
KILL ME...JUST FUCKING KILL ME NOW....
