Overwhelmed & Hurting now both my head & heart do drop.
This pain i feel is a constant reminder to me that I'm clean,
The joy in me leaks through a hole in my soul in a endless stream.
I bear my scars both mind & body open for all to see,
My chords get pulled though i let them in my dream like life,
Most of those days in my life are filled with naught but strife.
To break these bonds then be myself is my one desire,
Now it seems that all my actions raise the worlds dark ire.
Through the pain, Through the blood I strive to do whats right.
Everything i try to do draw's this noose down tight.
Cleave my heart like you cleaved my soul you've thrown me in this hole,
Another time I've been double crossed now each name has one red tack.
Damnit people i have no more room for all these knives in my back.
Through my life I have taken several poisons & overdosed on meth,
Through it all I prayed daily for my premature death.
I didnt ask to be what i am. I didnt ask for the pain,
Everyday I'm reminded that my life's gone down the drain.
Though at times I am overwhelmed then brought to my knees,
That pain I feel makes those times i feel joy a life giving breeze.