As long as you’re smiling the world shines
The day you were born I opened my mind
The most I could ask for Christmas is you
Hold on wait let me explain the truth
I’ve found someone who is so interesting
Someone who can tell you the meaning
Someone with such a big brave heart
So full of love that we should never drift apart
Remember this day because its our last
I’m just going to drift and drift off in the past
I know I’m nothing and I know you hate me
It’s something very simple that I should see
Got to embrace this pain and make it a part of me
While I sit tied to a chair in the bottomless sea
Writing poems everyday pouring my heart out
I mean it’s a sickness it’s like the gout
I understand that I’m not the best looking guy
I don’t even know why I thought I’d try
You’re mad out of my league
And I’m an idiot who always seems intrigued
I apologize for not being good enough
I’ll give it one last go and be tough
I’m an idiot yes I know this
This is why I haven’t had my first kiss
I’m a fool to believe I have chances anymore
I’m acting as though I’m a self righteous whore
I know nothing I do is good enough
Its funny because I really thought I was tough
Now I hold on to death with a gripping hand
As I listen to my one and only favorite band
Death is starting to come to me
And so now I must realize and see
I really was a mistake
And I will never be anything but a fake
I’m drowning in very deep water
I look in the mirror and wait for slaughter
But then I see you and peace finds me
All of a sudden I’m released and free
I turn to see what’s going on
And there’s a pretty little angel holding on
But she’s still out of my reach
Too far away and on that little beach
I’m running out of time
There’s no more need for my ingenious mind………………