Deeper and deeper I drown in self pity

Suffocating on life, so rancid and shitty

Waking up in the morning is like swallowing sand

Just to drag my feet through another day, so boring and bland

Choking back tears without the strength to cry

I wish my body would give in, give up and just die



Every week my world crumbles and shatters

And I’m left falling trying to remember what matters

All the days are the same, like dragged out bad dreams

And I’m left falling apart, trying to keep together the seams

Watching silently with a scream caught in my throat

Hoping when I let it out my lungs will cave in and I’ll choke



Sometimes it’s like I’m the only one lying

Got a smile on my face but inside I’m crying

If I have a skip in my step it’s ‘coz I have a thorn in my side

If I’m coughing up dust it’s ‘coz I just swallowed my pride

Everyone’s at the finish line and I’m stuck at the start

Kneeling over a grave ‘coz I’ve just buried my heart



Somehow I can still hear myself speak

Amazed that my voice isn’t shaky and weak

One morning I’ll wake up and it’ll be like swallowing cream

And I’ll smile when I realize it’s all just been a bad dream