These walls are so unfriendly
Shielding the outside world from my vision
Trapping me within
They keep me caged
A solid reminder that I am a prisoner
A mere window allows for a small view
Taunting me
I get a glimpse of the outside
The clouds, the grass, the gentle blue sky
But the glass keeps me inside
I'm left longing and confined.

I'm a little less than extraordinary
And I fall short of what's expected
I seem to be a catastrophe in the making
Carefully crafted and designed
To cause disaster when least anticipated
I will lie to you
There will be suffering
There will be sorrow
I can't live up to my apologies
So it's better not to give them

My skies, they turn grey
Every drop of sunlight
Choked by clouds that offer no silver lining.
Heaven is hidden
My prayers can not reach immortal's ears
I am left in despair.

Without sincerity
Your words hang loose in the air
And I'm left wondering
Picking apart fiction from the real
Abnormalities
Coat your personality
It's not hard to see
The way you compose yourself
It's a mystery
How I recognized you at all.

Ill stand on the shore
And water will try to knock me back
I will not let it.
The sand will shift
And the tide will come in
I will not be moved
Ill watch the horizon
And the sun will set
I will not look away
Ill be swept off to sea
And drown in the darkness
I will not struggle.
I know no fear.

Perish
In these growing flames
I will not rest
Until your flesh melts away
The harshness of
'Your time is up'
Has left you numb and
Fading
Time will pass
And you shall fall
Youre slowly dying and
Decaying
Your eyes so bright
They've lost their sheen
I hear the fear
In every scream
This curse upon you
Eats you from inside out
There's only silence
As you open your mouth

There's more to this
Than 'Im sorry' will ever change
Those cuts were a little too deep
Those words were a little too sharp
And the way you stood still
As I tried to embrace you one final time
It shattered my heart
Your eyes were elsewhere
Your expression was full of hate
No, apologies just won't do it.
Not this time.

My words seep right through you
You do not exist
Comprehension, you lack
You are the artificial
And the more time I spend
Dwelling on your bleary outline
The easier it is
To gaze straight past your facade

Some nights you lie awake, dazed and unaware the world is spinning
At these times your mouth will be silent, and your mind will be numb
If only every moment could be so still and quiet
You don't pause between words.
You go on and on and on
If I could take a needle and thread to your lips
Maybe you could learn to appreciate the sounds of calm
Instead of fearing it, like you do on those endless nights.
Nights where your thoughts race, yet go no where.
They each retrace their steps to pull up guilt you willed to sleep
Pain and suffering, loss and remorse
Emotions eat away at your heart
Apologies don't mean anything in the dark

In the still of the night, blinded by the darkness
I realized I didn't need the light to see
You glow brighter than the stars combined
Sleeping next to me
Even closed, your eyes are beautiful
Holding you so close feels so right
Dream sweetly and sleep tenderly
So in the morning you may shine