What is in this sunrise
To make me get out of bed
Living and decaying
Each breath brings on new pain
If I just close my eyes
And my lungs
Withdraw into myself
Block out the world around me
Peace may return
And I may sleep through the morning
Wasting a precious day.

These darkened streets
Have never felt so empty
As I walk into the night
Away from everything
I worked so hard to create
The life Ive built
The time Ive spent
Ill leave it all behind
And while I go,
Behind closed doors
I know they will be whispering
Telling tales
And sharing lies
My name will come up frequently
And thats alright
Because when the sun comes up
I will be far gone
Some place new
Some place alive
The way my past life was not
And I know in time
My name will be a memory
My face will be forgotten
They will reach out for words to describe me
And they all will draw a blank
At the end of this road
The empty road
A new start
A new chance
Renaissance.

The verge of tears
Your shining eyes
Im begging you
Please dont cry
Her hands are cold
Her breathing stopped
Why didnt anyone catch her
When she dropped
As morning fades
And lives are lost
Quarantine this place
This all can stop.

This is who I pretend to be
Standing next to you
Why cant you look at me?
Are my tears heart breaking
I watch you walk away
And as thoughts rush through my mind
It seems so clear to me
That its not really guilt I see
Rather denial and shame
You’re bottling up your pain.

Simplicity
Your eyes were so complex
But now it seems to me
The color has drained out
Am I supposed to believe
That everything is fine
When you won't talk to me
I thought we shared something so much deeper

I cant catch your eyes
I cant catch my breath
These words fumble
Carelessly
My lips are numb
Your last kiss was so cold
Wave me goodbye
Love me
With one foot out the door
The other in your grave

Early morning
The sky is weeping
I feel you breathing
At my side
Cold and trembling
Fingers lacing
My hand holding
Yours all night
I hear you're rasping
Lungs inflating
God, you're shaking
Hush your tears
Shadows casting
The window reflecting
Rain drops glistening
As you wait
Slowly dying
Don't keep fighting
Please stop trying
Let peace will you to sleep.

Open your eyes
The morning is prying at your lids
Beauty is clawing at your insides
Let it out
Its seeping through your mouth
In words I can not repeat
Your voice holds them together
A melody I wish I could immitate
And that fragile smile that follows
I will do my best to protect it
The world is a cold place
And you should be sheltered
When the moon comes out
And the sun is sleeping
I will hold you
I will keep that smile safe
No harm done
I want to preserve your being
Cherish all that I have come to love
So when daybreak comes
I might hear that sweet voice once more
Its your inner beauty
Sneaking past your lips
Grant me a kiss
So perhaps I can feel it inside me
And you will see it in my eyes

When the tide comes in
And mixes the sand beneath our feet
We will not stay standing
We will be swept off to sea
And there we will see the skeletons
Children of the waves
Drowned in past lives from other worlds
They will have already memorized our names

I do confess
The sky is so pretty
Without any stars
Like looking into the ocean
I wish its waves would swallow me
Pull me into the darkness
Absorb me and my pain
And when the sun comes up
I will burn
And then I will shine