there is one memory that does still get to me, and no matter how much I try to numb it out, it only kinda hurts more. and out of all the shitty memories that I've had, they don't affect me anymore. but this one does. when I was hospitalized for my 7th time, I was in there for my birthday as well. no one visited me. and the staff made it seem as though it wasn't my birthday at all. everything was so depressing. and what kinda sucked was how everyone got a visitor, but I was the only one who didn't.