Vampariah

Shawn I crossed over, here is what I did. I sinned right somehow. I know you couldn't tell me, because the ones who are allowed to make the cut are the just, anmd this is something that one has to be guided by their own devices. The psychic told me how to approach the final test. There are other like me, and they don't know what to do.

They will not find the answer here, but the ones reading will understanbd what to say to guide them. PLease keep this up. Thanks and say hello to the girls, I love them because I know them. I think my subsrciption runs out on the 19th of December, try to schedule a web cam chat before then.

MS is auto immune thing

I had MS presursor, but the body stopped attacking itself when I flip flopped so that the body parts that were not a part of me became a part of me, when the immune system crossed over too.

I cured MS by preventing it

There is no cure for MS as of now

once you have it, you cna never get rid of it

I didn't know how I was going to do it, but I did

you see icons are icons because of individuality, the ability to think freely and being different in a world where everyone is out to get someone, the only ones who can make the transition and receive the godhead are the ones when at the cross roads, they make the right choice

the right choice is thus

do you do the wrong thing at the wrong time, and this makes it right?

or do you do the right thing at the right time?

The right thing would be that the individual considered for judgment by nature makes the decision whether they will cover their own butts, or whether they are going to take a chance, that their passion, to not live in a compromised form?

When in life radicality is the thing that drives the present into the future and all innovation invention and discovery is found by taking the chance by smiting the self, and being diffrent from the others who only care about themselves, when the sacrifice of the body is made, nature rewards the individual with longer life.

The immortality of fame is bestowed upon the ones who have the courage to go against the self, to constantly do things that are not allowed, to break barriers, to dare to be different, to always make the wrong choice and be experimentative. I have always made the unique choice to go against the grain that other would naturally do. I am not human I never was, I had the power to smite the self and see if I would survive. This time I just wanted out, the game was not fair, and I gave up, I did not do the thing that would have preserved the self, as evil would have done, and therefore at the time of judgment, evil does make the wrong choice, self preservation goes against the community, I can and did have the power and strength to err, I have always been candid, for in erring one is human, and the truth is found by being daring. The seeker of truth finds it, when he does not like it and he wants to die because he cannot stand in judgment, he gives up at the moment it counts the most, and he chooses oblivion instead of self preservation, and this made all the difference in the world to always take the path least travelled.

Joyce

I will not live for ever, but because I understand things as only a strong spirit can dare to go, to receive the collective unconscious from the truth of the reality of life is the greatest gift.

To be taught things is to never learn. In order to learn one must feel it. One must walk through fire, fear, insecurity, self preservation are for ordinary people, they will all not pass the test. Fear is worse than all, fear will drive one mad, fearing makes them come true.

I fused my left brain into my right, and the interface is clean. However I must be balkanced right now I am fragile, annd i had to show up at a basketball game to be available for the playoffs, and I awoke maybe before I was ready, but I awoke with a start so I may have cut it right, I did some mathematics, and I was satisfied. But fear, as the formication happens, is imperative, while the whole brain is rewired to wrok with the brain chemicals as they were meant to as when I first came out for the first 33 years of my life, the feeling of ants crawling up my body, I let into my brain, and I was open to it. I did not have fear or paranoia when it happened. Then as the third eye, window to the soul opened, and I had the third chance to rewire my brain right, as the left brain downloaded into the right, I hypnotised myself to have the prime directives I wished to guide me.

I said 1) I am a teacher, I am a teacher, I am a teacher

2) respect children

Now, when all those voices of my left brain united with my right, they are ordered and my priorities are clear. It was cool. I was thinking about something, and i heard an echo in the back of my head say, almost audible, "I am a teacher".

I knew I had to brain wash myself, because I knew what was happening

it is not the eyes are the window of the soul, it is the third eye right between the eyes, which is the center of the gemini, it is the Agna chakra point. it is the chakra point that most people have fear when it happens, I controlled the fear, I had no fear, and so my brain has been rewired right.

I am also playing the guitar again to keep it simple stupid

obsessing about things leads to madness, it drains the brain rather than filling it, I am eating berries for dopamine, turkey for seratonin, I am going to my old shrink that dismissed me so long ago "if you are not crazy and you don't need medicine why do we meet once a month?"

Yeah doc, you are right, but if I ever need you or if I learn about something I wish to teach you I will contact hyou again

my door is always open she said

The doctor took my blood pressure today, and I think I already told you it was perfect, and he said I was manic, well, I opened up to him to show him where my mind was at all the things I was considering, how to get norepinephren and epinophrine, and not take other neuroleptics that put pepople on couches and make them get diabetes and gain 50 pounds.

he was angry, I told him look, I am not going to go mad, I know how madness works, it is a brain imbalance, I have no fears, I am secure, and I am playing guitar to not think so much

and he looked at me so proud

I took control of my life

The psychic I visted and paid 35 dollars for when I got off the train from Rhode Island

she spoke in generalities, she said that I pretend to be happy and that I could live better but I have a wall I hide behind

she said you must remove the block and be more free

I was like no, you are wrong I am the most free person I have ever met

she said no, you place limitations on your self, because you think you are ill, it is manifest destiny where the right mental approach is the correct philosphy. The philosophy of how an individual approaches life is what drives it to their destiny, it is the most important thing.

All these years you think you have been sick, you think I can't do this and then you can't. you must remove the block

and so I went around after that and lived hard and strong, and this made a difference in this 7 day test of further judgment where I have to keep at the world and onlyh fall asleep when it is absolutely necessary, to sleep before the time comes, then I lose, I have removed the blockj and I am following life diligently and answering all life's responsible rythms. Mental health I used to teach my kids when I thought I knew it all, is to go out and do and face life's problems. Life's problems infest your mind when you let things build up, and then you are trapped paralized, and overwhelmed.

That 35 dollars was the best thing I could have thrown my money on, as I left I thought I should have been the one to give her a reading, but, you cannot tell people how to make the right choice at the crossroads, thenit is not their choice and the benfits are lost, judgemnt by widom of intuition is the key, to be natural and to do unconsciously without thinking the right thing always which turns out to be the wrong thing,

when I keep doing the wrong thing at the right time, then that is me, and that is the thing that has always guided me, exceptionality in life is most rare, and when the individuakl cxeases to care abiut themself, that is the mark of a good man, and nature wants to keep the altruistic around, evil dies. Earth wants to live, the good whom undertake evil to understand evil to defeat evil, when they are a spy in the house of evil, they are at the bridge of lies, the crossroads of the devil, when they choose the wrong path for them, then they have made the right choice.

Life has always been backwards because of the devil = lived, backwards, the devil has altered life because of the worng done to children we will never overcome, so when all good deeds get punished because people envy care most of all, and evil wins because the devil recruits people to be evil like him and to stop to care about others,
ultimately life is a rehearsal, and when the time of judgment comes because the angel left shoulder and devil right, the angel has left so you want to leave life, life is totally fake and even if the devil appears right, you know that truth is a lie and the lies are truth, and so I went the other way away from life and I was rewarded. In peace.

It was amazing Kristen, I kmnow it sounds crazy, but I have always been candid.

Posted by Vampariah on Thursday, November 30, 2006 at 10:30 PM