David Vaccaro: fuck I made it rain over here
David Vaccaro: over
: awesome
David Vaccaro: it was a nice drizzle
: i wish it was raining here
David Vaccaro: no
David Vaccaro: you don't want the
David Vaccaro: at
David Vaccaro: that
: why not?
David Vaccaro: sinning brings rain
: ah
: i guess
: never heard of that before
David Vaccaro: yeah right
: i haven't actually
David Vaccaro: hmmmm
David Vaccaro: maybe I believe you
: i don't see why you wouldn't
David Vaccaro: well
David Vaccaro: you are so smart
: well i might be smart about a lot of things, but there are a lot of things i do not know
David Vaccaro: humph
: and that was one of them, although i know now lol
David Vaccaro: well
: lol
David Vaccaro: the whole thing about MArtians and the canals of water and whether there is rain on MArs
David Vaccaro: and what happened to intelligent life on Mars
David Vaccaro: is that
David Vaccaro: if we were scraped up bacteria on a meteor
David Vaccaro: and implanted on earth
David Vaccaro: then
David Vaccaro: the life forms that drove the weather systems
David Vaccaro: all the sinning they did
David Vaccaro: there was left not one virgin to drive the weather systems
David Vaccaro: and then the lack of moisture
David Vaccaro: (which is a good word)
David Vaccaro: but
David Vaccaro: there you have it
David Vaccaro: there was life on Mars once
David Vaccaro: and then Earth became inhabited
David Vaccaro: the sCIENTISTS KNOW IT
David Vaccaro: so it goes into theory
David Vaccaro: and speculation
David Vaccaro: and science fiction
David Vaccaro: (breathing)
: hmmm that's very interesting
David Vaccaro: I don't know how long i am gonna stay in Montreal
David Vaccaro: I almost screwed up when it was raining
David Vaccaro: I am so not in control of my body
David Vaccaro: I'm not it is ridiculous
David Vaccaro: I think I am in control
David Vaccaro: I went to shiny uploads
David Vaccaro: to post some pics
David Vaccaro: I surfed for
David Vaccaro: and I got into to it too much
: ah
David Vaccaro: it is so stupid being a man these days
David Vaccaro: I feel like, well that I am actually on a surf board sometimes
David Vaccaro: funny
David Vaccaro: I found a cool pic
David Vaccaro: look at this
David Vaccaro: I won't tell you where I found it though
: ok
David Vaccaro: it isn't like a real person
: that's fine
David Vaccaro: so don't think I am trying to shove porn down your mouth
: haha it's all good
David Vaccaro: well
David Vaccaro: it ain't taking
David Vaccaro: ok
: wow that's awesome
: i like it
David Vaccaro: I wish I could put it on GG
: i drew something kind of like that
David Vaccaro: oh
: but it wasn't a silouette and the guy had wings
David Vaccaro: well this one is a werewolf
David Vaccaro: lychen
: oooo i like those
David Vaccaro: or vampire in white
: mine was a vampire
David Vaccaro: yeah
David Vaccaro: bitten angel
: i end up always drawing elves or vampires for some reason
David Vaccaro: goody
: yeah
David Vaccaro: because well I think women have to be taken by force
David Vaccaro: cuz what I am doing has never worked
: haha yeah, that reminds me of that scorpion album lmao
David Vaccaro: there are a variety of forces though
: well i dunno, i don't like to be forced to do something
David Vaccaro: I keep using the same old trick
: hmm which is what?
David Vaccaro: of expecting them to listen to their own heart power
David Vaccaro: but
David Vaccaro: I mean like red haired girls
David Vaccaro: they are forced to get with black guys
David Vaccaro: there is a force there
David Vaccaro: the force of freckles
David Vaccaro: freckle force
David Vaccaro: and
David Vaccaro: I assume there are others
: i guess
David Vaccaro: but rape is not one of them
: i dunno
: no
David Vaccaro: yes
David Vaccaro: I agree
: i've been there... not fun
David Vaccaro: but
David Vaccaro: there are forces that almost have the power of rape but without the guise
David Vaccaro: and the individual goes along with it
: yeah i suppose so
David Vaccaro: I guess in that manner I like getting raped
: haha
David Vaccaro: just like I like getting hustled
David Vaccaro: being hustled makes me feel like a whore
: lmao
David Vaccaro: and feeling like a whore is good
: to you maybe
David Vaccaro: that is the surfing thing
: ah
David Vaccaro: I guess
David Vaccaro: so
David Vaccaro: I mean
David Vaccaro: either you are alone
David Vaccaro: or some outside force can take you
David Vaccaro: but I never know when to stop
: yeah, i used to be like that
: then a took a long time off from guys
David Vaccaro: I mean the porn picture program doesn't know how much vitality I have left
David Vaccaro: well
David Vaccaro: I can't even get close to females
David Vaccaro: so
: why not?
David Vaccaro: I have to rape myself repeatedly
David Vaccaro: well
David Vaccaro: I am a gentleman
: ah, well that's always a good thing
David Vaccaro: and I say hey you are fucken beautiful that perfume makes me dizzy
David Vaccaro: and then I walk a away
David Vaccaro: another guy would use that perfect [pick up line and get the girl
David Vaccaro: but I am a knight
David Vaccaro: and so all I have is my white horse
David Vaccaro: dumb

*BREAK*


David Vaccaro: you have to stop being a vampire
: how am i being a vampire?
David Vaccaro: staying up late
: oh yeah
: i know
David Vaccaro: I am not talking about sucking bloodline
: it's gotten so bad
David Vaccaro: you have to flip it
: i am an insomniac now
David Vaccaro: well
: i used to be able to sleep at night
David Vaccaro: no
: and now it's really hard for me
David Vaccaro: that is who made you
David Vaccaro: the one who made you
David Vaccaro: your maker
David Vaccaro: she or he
David Vaccaro: prolly it was a he
David Vaccaro: he stayed up late surfing porn
David Vaccaro: and riding fences all night
David Vaccaro: which is why you are horny
David Vaccaro: all the time
: hmm maybe
David Vaccaro: it is in your blood
: i dunno
David Vaccaro: yes
David Vaccaro: shut up
David Vaccaro: I know
David Vaccaro: don't say maybe
: ok sheesh
David Vaccaro: there is a force inside you outside of yourself and your own will
David Vaccaro: your maker like raped you all the time
David Vaccaro: before you were born
: hmm
David Vaccaro: that is the way it is
David Vaccaro: I know because I am doing it to my kids now
David Vaccaro: I am like hypnotized
: ah
David Vaccaro: and i can't stop once I pop em
David Vaccaro: once you pop you can't stop
David Vaccaro: so
David Vaccaro: I mean
David Vaccaro: relatives suck really
David Vaccaro: I know
David Vaccaro: sometimes in the back of my mind
David Vaccaro: I know I am prgramming my child to do the same activities
David Vaccaro: and
David Vaccaro: I get a weird feeling out of that
: hmm
David Vaccaro: I mean I am a good man
David Vaccaro: but I have become a freak
David Vaccaro: so
: yeah, i guess that's how i fee like a freak
David Vaccaro: I could like groove for a moment to drive the behavior home to the unborn
David Vaccaro: and then
David Vaccaro: well
David Vaccaro: I just feel bad
: yeah
David Vaccaro: and I stop
David Vaccaro: but then I ride anyways
David Vaccaro: for me
David Vaccaro: but in the back of my mind I know the rape happens
David Vaccaro: unconsciously
David Vaccaro: but
David Vaccaro: the surfing has to be done
David Vaccaro: the blood has to flow
David Vaccaro: and the unborns will be just like pop
David Vaccaro: boy or girl
David Vaccaro: because if I don't have sex
David Vaccaro: my heart dies
David Vaccaro: so
: hmm
David Vaccaro: yeah
David Vaccaro: I have to rape my kids to make them
: that's very interesting
David Vaccaro: it is like I am impregnating them
David Vaccaro: weird convop
David Vaccaro: convo
David Vaccaro: strange but true
David Vaccaro: what do you think?
David Vaccaro: i need some advice
: well.. i am not sure what advice to give
: i really don't know the situation all too well
: i am reading what you are typing
David Vaccaro: well do you hate your hyped up sexuality
David Vaccaro: or do you embrace it?
: i embrace it actually
David Vaccaro: see
: if someone doesn't like it, then oh well
David Vaccaro: I know the rape of the virgin is good
David Vaccaro: I mean
David Vaccaro: but
David Vaccaro: like
David Vaccaro: when I was in NYC
David Vaccaro: I was learning about certain surf moves
David Vaccaro: and
David Vaccaro: I got to the point where I was on the floor like thrusting my hips up
David Vaccaro: and
David Vaccaro: it was great
David Vaccaro: but it was a total slave move
David Vaccaro: and so I got into it
David Vaccaro: but then one day I said fuck this
David Vaccaro: this is sick
David Vaccaro: I went for a walk instead
David Vaccaro: and it was sunny
David Vaccaro: and nice
: well i don't think you should try to conceal how you are
David Vaccaro: and the neighborhood was mind fucking me as usual
David Vaccaro: yeah but I am telling you how deep the guilt gets
: trust me, i know the feeling
David Vaccaro: then there was a black SUV
David Vaccaro: and a papa was there with his whole family
David Vaccaro: and there was a kid
David Vaccaro: a girl like
David Vaccaro: shit
David Vaccaro: I dunno
David Vaccaro: I don't know how old she was
David Vaccaro: I was a teacher I know 5 and up
David Vaccaro: she wasn't that
David Vaccaro: but
David Vaccaro: the whole fucken family had to wait for the girl
David Vaccaro: because she was clinging to the hubcap
David Vaccaro: doing the slave move
David Vaccaro: standing up
David Vaccaro: and the father looked right at me
David Vaccaro: and he fucken rubbed it in
: wow
David Vaccaro: was he her maker?
: i dunno
David Vaccaro: was it his fault?
: that's strange
David Vaccaro: is it mine?
David Vaccaro: my god
David Vaccaro: well
David Vaccaro: everything I do gets hard wired into my double helix
David Vaccaro: fortunately I can also do thousands of interesting effective amazing moves
David Vaccaro: so there is a trade off
: hmm
David Vaccaro: which is why I was sacrificed because I am the kind of guy to even more so balance the rape stuff
: well i am sure there are a lot of women who would appreciate that
: haha
David Vaccaro: and just do gifts
: ah
: yeah
David Vaccaro: but
David Vaccaro: I am totally sick in the head from all of this
David Vaccaro: you know
David Vaccaro: it don't matter if I can spin a 360 and do a no look pass behind my head and back
David Vaccaro: to a guy cutting at 20 MPH
David Vaccaro: and hit him in the chest so hard he drops the ball
David Vaccaro: you know
David Vaccaro: I still feel like a rapist
David Vaccaro: and the thing is
David Vaccaro: I am a knight
David Vaccaro: and I would never even kiss a girl until the third date
David Vaccaro: and the world takes my gifts
David Vaccaro: away
David Vaccaro: from me
David Vaccaro: blemish
David Vaccaro: totally
David Vaccaro: you know
David Vaccaro: and they can accept me now because they know I am loser
: yeah
David Vaccaro: they can accept the angel now
: i know what you mean
David Vaccaro: because they made me a freak
David Vaccaro: and even when I am in Hollywood
David Vaccaro: they are going to know I am an asshole fucken child molestor
David Vaccaro: invisible children
David Vaccaro: totally raped
David Vaccaro: I suck
David Vaccaro: life has it's surprises
: i guess so
David Vaccaro: are you ever carried away by an outside force?
: yeah
David Vaccaro: or am I wrong?
David Vaccaro: oh
: no i am
David Vaccaro: shit
David Vaccaro: ok
David Vaccaro: yeah I thought so
David Vaccaro: man
: i dunno it's weird
: i have tried to date guys that look more "acceptable" to society.. you know, short hair, money, alpha male type guys... and i just can't date them
: it's odd, i just find them, no matter how ahndsome they may be, not attractive at all
David Vaccaro: well that is because money is a curse
David Vaccaro: I am happy poor
David Vaccaro: money comes the evil
: well i am not into money
David Vaccaro: no but
David Vaccaro: the shoirt hair
: but those guys to me, when i look at them are empty
David Vaccaro: the clean clothes
David Vaccaro: the nice car
David Vaccaro: it is all cover ups
: yeah i always go for the depressed, dark, goth ones
David Vaccaro: and now I am to be rich
David Vaccaro: and I am one of them
David Vaccaro: um
David Vaccaro: well
David Vaccaro: the ones who try not to cover up the dark ones
David Vaccaro: are true in tune with the human condition
: yes
David Vaccaro: well you don't know who is an act though
David Vaccaro: humans are very sophisticated
: they have what i need, some more than others, they are what i want
David Vaccaro: well
David Vaccaro: I am not going to get into that
David Vaccaro: as much as I would like to know about your needs or whatever
David Vaccaro: you are spoken for
: well i know that
David Vaccaro: I mean it would interest me immensely as a writer
: i'm not looking for something else
David Vaccaro: but I am outside of the loop
David Vaccaro: you did however confrim my suspicions of my lifestyle
: well that's good
David Vaccaro: yes
: although i feel kind of unaccepted in a way
David Vaccaro: but what are you getting at anyway
David Vaccaro: you have to speak your mind
David Vaccaro: and I was evil in my mode of thought
David Vaccaro: so I will sit here and take whatever you have to catharsize
David Vaccaro: unaccepted?
: i feel like Smitty doesn't accept my sexual prowess
David Vaccaro: um
David Vaccaro: well
David Vaccaro: honestly yeah
David Vaccaro: it is true
: he is always complaining about me being horny all the time like its something i can control
: and then i feel bad
David Vaccaro: but you ain't no one trick dog
David Vaccaro: you have many gifts
David Vaccaro: and I told him she is using the animal lure
David Vaccaro: but give her a chance to be a goddess too
David Vaccaro: once she is inside
David Vaccaro: I mean you know how to cook as well as hundreds of other things
David Vaccaro: you got the gifts
: mm hmm
: it's not all about the sex either
: but it's my drive
David Vaccaro: yes I know
David Vaccaro: because the more the sex drive takes over
David Vaccaro: the more it has to be covered with sophistication and complexity of behavior
: yeah
David Vaccaro: so I made him understand that
David Vaccaro: because you feel bad about it
: i do
: i know he doesn't like it
David Vaccaro: and so then therefore you are good also
David Vaccaro: because you feel bad
: and i'm not quite sure why he doesn't
David Vaccaro: I feel like you are my daughter or something
: haha
: well i thank you for the advice
: it is very helpful
: and i try to talk to Smitty about these things, things that he's afraid of and what he doesn't like, so he doesn't tell me because he knows it offensive to me because i can't change those things
David Vaccaro: say it right
David Vaccaro: um
David Vaccaro: just the invisible rape stuff
: that's fine
David Vaccaro: because I think no one has ever admitted it in print
David Vaccaro: and it has to be writ
David Vaccaro: definately