vvinterborn: So, Dave
vvinterborn: how goes it?
blurrighter: well I haven't felt Tamara tonight, but I usually feel her when I ay down
blurrighter: lay
blurrighter: I am not worred I am sure tequila will straighten out the problem
vvinterborn: lol
vvinterborn: no
vvinterborn: that won't solve anything
blurrighter: LSD?
vvinterborn: drugs
vvinterborn: won't take away the pains
blurrighter: so what would work praytell, and have you thought about the problem, I don't have the books you have
blurrighter: you know I did the whole soul trip without an advizsor
blurrighter: Paul
vvinterborn: well
vvinterborn: the only thing that works
vvinterborn: is to go through the lateralus
vvinterborn: shed your skin
vvinterborn: that is how you do it Dave
vvinterborn: that is the only way
blurrighter: I am talking about a body to body lateralus
blurrighter: mind meld
blurrighter: tequila does it
blurrighter: I am sure
vvinterborn: well
vvinterborn: body to body isn't really neccisary
vvinterborn: the alteralus is a one person thing
vvinterborn: only one person can do it
vvinterborn: and it must be alone
blurrighter: there is always some tool you have to use for it to work whatever it is you do when you need new attributes
vvinterborn: that is how it must be
vvinterborn: alone
blurrighter: brain to brain
blurrighter: one consciuousness
blurrighter: well
blurrighter: she is in my consciousness
blurrighter: but I am not in hers
blurrighter: that is the problem
blurrighter: I can hear her faintly
blurrighter: and I can interpret the light bulb light fluctuations
blurrighter: so I am sure it is her
blurrighter: I would stake my life on it
blurrighter: but I don't think that I will ever be fully in her mind
vvinterborn: well
blurrighter: I love her in a way that is different than the way she loves me
vvinterborn: womens minds move fast Dave
vvinterborn: their thoughts are as mayflies
vvinterborn: they live for 24 hours
vvinterborn: then die off
vvinterborn: As for our thoughts
vvinterborn: they drift into reality searching for a home
blurrighter: she had a substantial trippy intellect
blurrighter: she was worth my love
vvinterborn: ha
vvinterborn: today
vvinterborn: my ex came to hang out with me
vvinterborn: i hvaen't seen i her like 8 months
vvinterborn: we went n the hottub
vvinterborn: i took my shirt off and she was loving my body
vvinterborn: she was checking out everything I have worked for
vvinterborn: my abs and chest
blurrighter: cool
vvinterborn: and I even pissed her off a little
vvinterborn: and yet she would'ntl eave
vvinterborn: I had her in my control
blurrighter: be strong
vvinterborn: It was grand
vvinterborn: but she was a total reck
vvinterborn: destroyed
vvinterborn: the point is
vvinterborn: is sometimes it works like that Dave
vvinterborn: My ex was in my thoughts only for short moments
vvinterborn: but I think I may have always been in hers
blurrighter: I know when I think about Tamara she comes to consciousness, that is how it is activated
blurrighter: she gets excited that I think about her
blurrighter: but this has been going on for centuries man
blurrighter: that is why I can feel her from so far away
blurrighter: she told me she has been in contact with me for alot longer than I have noticed her presence
vvinterborn: Well
vvinterborn: Maynard said this..
vvinterborn: "I am to connected to you to slip away, fade away, Days away I still feel you. Touching me, changing me, and considerately killing me
blurrighter: I pledged myself to her to be her best friend for life man
blurrighter: that is our relationship staus and has always been that
blurrighter: I cannot go against my word to serve her
vvinterborn: well if that is your pledge then that is what you must accept
blurrighter: I can handle it, but she might not
blurrighter: but the thing is PAul
blurrighter: yes Zack told me he has felt me in his head
blurrighter: up in MOntreal
blurrighter: he said he was sure of it
blurrighter: but tamara is a backstabbing liar
blurrighter: she can't be true to anyone but herself, and now her kids
blurrighter: so
blurrighter: when on the phone
blurrighter: I talk to her about shit she doesn't admit it
blurrighter: she is afraid of not being normal or something
blurrighter: and yet I have seen through her eyes
blurrighter: I have seen Vermont from here
blurrighter: I mergeed
blurrighter: but then I got took away when I started to see the blue lights of peoples hearts thru the wasll
blurrighter: walls
blurrighter: that is when the link was removed
blurrighter: I have had more powers than now
blurrighter: so I know what is possible
blurrighter: potentially possible
vvinterborn: well
vvinterborn: never expect the impossible
vvinterborn: but what is impossible Dave?
blurrighter: and I must think about some girl somewhere or I would go insane
blurrighter: so the sanity search has lead to insanity
blurrighter: um
blurrighter: meditation
blurrighter: I think if I could mediatte
blurrighter: meditatate
blurrighter: whatever
blurrighter: I think
blurrighter: she could get in
blurrighter: but the power of my mind is On STREAM of consciousness
blurrighter: I can't let her in
blurrighter: my thoughts I guess dominate
blurrighter: and she is a submissive girl
blurrighter: sometimes
blurrighter: she comes on and I hear her
blurrighter: and it sounds like she has been doing heroin again
blurrighter: and what I hear is like she is talking through her fingers
blurrighter: in her mouth
blurrighter: and
blurrighter: then I see her soul
blurrighter: her cracked soul
blurrighter: it comes through
blurrighter: her fuckupedness
blurrighter: Tamara
blurrighter: so
blurrighter: perhaps she can only join my mind
blurrighter: because you know my mind is righetous
blurrighter: she does her witch tricks
blurrighter: and she tries to hypnotise me
blurrighter: but it never gets anywhere
blurrighter: she makes the string dance
blurrighter: and we talk
blurrighter: the light bulb will frazzle and spit
blurrighter: but she does not get in
blurrighter: and it is like she just enjoys that she has power over me for the moment instead of me in the fiber of HER being
vvinterborn: well
blurrighter: mayflies
vvinterborn: do ou want to be in her?
blurrighter: I want her to stop floating around the body consciousness in my limbs and get into my head and talk as we used to do telepathically
blurrighter: we had it
blurrighter: but lost it
blurrighter: and now she is trapped
blurrighter: because she didn't lose her telepathy
blurrighter: I did
vvinterborn: well
vvinterborn: tell her to stop the drugs
vvinterborn: they are blocking her third eye
blurrighter: so she can sense me stronger
blurrighter: I think she only plays with the heroin
vvinterborn: well
vvinterborn: its blcoking her third eye
vvinterborn: witout it open
blurrighter: yes she is not pure
vvinterborn: you will not have that
blurrighter: well
blurrighter: she is supernatural
blurrighter: born soul
blurrighter: like that
blurrighter: that is why she must be loved
blurrighter: but she bullshitted herself for so long
blurrighter: she is not as erudite and astute and well read as I
blurrighter: as it is my responsibility to be a great writer
blurrighter: for her she is primarily a hedonist
blurrighter: now mother
blurrighter: so
blurrighter: her voice, as I remember it in my head it was more of a grooveyness
vvinterborn: well
blurrighter: I liked it
vvinterborn: be as Euridice and orpheus then
blurrighter: but it was not whole cohesive thoughts
blurrighter: I am not dying for a woman again man
blurrighter: not Tamara certainly
vvinterborn: Well
vvinterborn: Orpheus didn't die
blurrighter: she was the one who killed me
vvinterborn: Orphes swayed hte god Hades with his music for Euridice
vvinterborn: he tried to save it
blurrighter: a movie version he dies
blurrighter: but you are right
vvinterborn: he took her
vvinterborn: but in the end
vvinterborn: she could not be saved
vvinterborn: she looked back
blurrighter: fear
vvinterborn: and she was not supposed to
blurrighter: she didn't trust him
blurrighter: that is the pillar of salt
vvinterborn: aww
blurrighter: different story
blurrighter: bible
blurrighter: and the greek mythology
blurrighter: she
blurrighter: was scared by a demon
blurrighter: ran off
blurrighter: and was bit by a snake
blurrighter: lore
blurrighter: you know Paul
blurrighter: There is nothing to prepare me for what has haooened
blurrighter: happened
blurrighter: I wish she had a great mind as I do
blurrighter: a godhead
blurrighter: but
blurrighter: she is a hedonist that doesn't have to asnwer to anything
blurrighter: and I am a hedonist
blurrighter: whom feels bad about the things I do and it makes me achieve great things
blurrighter: she has no conscience
vvinterborn: I've never met a woman with a Godhead Dave
vvinterborn: Everyone I have met acts on childish emotions and instinct
vvinterborn: Nothing more
blurrighter: heart
blurrighter: so she stays in my heart then?
blurrighter: her lover joined me last night
blurrighter: he is a powerful aquarius telepath
blurrighter: he was in my head
blurrighter: and she was in my left kidney
blurrighter: and they made bubbles go up and down thru my heart
blurrighter: air
blurrighter: I don't know if he tried taking her out
blurrighter: or putting her in me
blurrighter: or putting her in my heart
blurrighter: I think that is what he tried to do
blurrighter: he knows what he is doing
blurrighter: aquarius is an air sign so he does the distance thng also
blurrighter: but he masters fluids as well
blurrighter: she knows now
blurrighter: she must stay trapped in my heart until I meet another women whom makes me not think about her
blurrighter: because it is my thoughts of her that brings her to life within my flesh
blurrighter: thank you for your help
blurrighter: I am going to smoke and go to sleep
blurrighter: goodnight, no woman with a godhead huh?
blurrighter: good answer
blurrighter: I know her character flaws
vvinterborn: haha
blurrighter: it all makes sense now
vvinterborn: well
vvinterborn: yes Dave
vvinterborn: no women with a godhead
vvinterborn: the women have something else
vvinterborn: that the Godhead needs
blurrighter: I am sure I have flaws but without a consience then there is no accountability
blurrighter: the conscience is the key
blurrighter: guilt
blurrighter: paving over bad actions with Saintlyness
blurrighter: goodnight man I am saving this one,
blurrighter: you can do whatever you want with it
vvinterborn: Alrite man
vvinterborn: goodnight, I will save it as well
blurrighter: maybe in another hundred years someone might love so hard like me and her to make this happen again
vvinterborn: well
vvinterborn: It will happen again
blurrighter: it might be more common
blurrighter: but I will take her heart
blurrighter: she had a fine heart
vvinterborn: Well
vvinterborn: there are lyrics Dave
vvinterborn: they go
vvinterborn: I will hold you when you fall, Iw ill be there when you call, i'll keep the demons far away from you, I give you everything I own, you don't have to be alone, as long as you don't fall in love with me
blurrighter: fair enough