You seem to know what you need. Life does have its surprises though. If someone told me when I was a child I would retire at 27, go to a bar everyday and drink beer, with the nickname Coach, sit in the same stool, with a beer mug with my nickname on it, and a framed certificate of a Star they named after me right next to that stool, and do crosswords compulsively, have no children no girlfriend no job no car at age 44, I wouldn't have believed you.

Plans are nice. You could make plans and get anything you require. I gave up making plans though. I just live. I am thrilled with the life I led which is why I can recline. I have no sense of urgency, no ambition, no worries. If I outlive my father I stand to inherit an exorbitant amount of money. The fact that I don't live lavishly and am happy whilst I am poor are also other surprises.

Waking up at 2 in the afternoon, walking to get coffee and cigars as soon as I wake up, buying them at the same stores, the habitual existence I have rutted myself into, going to sleep at 5 in the morning. But then there are a lot of technological advances that came my way. If it wasn't for porn on the internet I probably would have a girlfriend. I dunno.

I stay within a 6 block radius, I am like a territorial stray cat. I might be everything I thought I would not be. I do play sports, but that is only when someone drags me out, I gave up trying to improve my body. The whole mental patient thing is surprising too, the supernatural element also is big. I was a nonbeliever, and I can take anyone with a video camera and make the whole world believe in the supernatural, I just don't feel the need to prove it, it is my secret, plus it would blow the world away. I would be killed as a warlock. But I am not a witch merely an observer.

I won 4 awards on Gonegothic. Biggest Spammer, most likely to kill a thread, best thread creator, and best poet. That should be at least 4 months of premium. I like putting roots down. By the way, when I write something good to you, I copy it and place it in my blog. I owe it all to you, because I don't really write anymore, but you bring it out of me, I just cannot ignore a wide eyed girl that demands edification. And you do need some. Even though I find your use of words charming and disarming, other people cannot get by improper word use and see the forest for its trees. Proper communication would lead to transmission of ideas. I soak in as much as I can, but I find I just get a feeling of what you are trying to say, instead of perspicacity.