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"Life is tough, it is not what we thought it was, and we too are not whom we thought we were, and somewhere in the shifting of both these worlds our identity gets lost and we have to play some game. If evil is to be expected in life then it can do us no harm. We all cared at one point but I didn’t want to live forever if life is fake, but you know what? Life isn’t fake at all, not one bit of it. There is such a complex web of life to keep the real here it is only the fake who get escorted out of the building." (a quote from Vampirerave by Vampariah)

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I used to think the Bible was babble too when I was your age. I discounted the brainwashing of convergent sheep thinkers. But I came to a point in life where this amazing red carpet under my feet was pulled out from under me during some long played out scam where I lost my belief in life, & everything that I was taught had holes in it, to the point where even science failed me, & then came this mystical book that never made sense to me, because I had never been at that point of weakness to notice things from the point of view of the writers of the Bible. The Bible was put out there as a catch all, to have a text from which to relate to when the individual has fallen off the face of the Earth; to address the things already agreed to be left out from the first universities, not too long ago.

The Bible was such an offensive device, that anytime the word Bible was mentioned I shut my eyes & closed my mind to it. But like I said, I knew I had fallen thru the cracks & I had entered into a new way of receiving knowledge, I had a hunch the Bible was going to make sense at that point; & I was right. I hope your blue face & desire for constant immediate instant gratification never strays into the diorama of the examined life that will make you relate to the subtext & shadow of knowledge, true wisdom. I understand I used the B word, & you closed your mind - but I illustrated quite simply the story of Pilates when Jesus is doing his healing spell, they meet. Maybe I didn't make myself clear. You see, Jesus says if you want to be healed, all you have to do is reach out & touch me. Now, Jesus is standing up when he said that, but the Bible was meant to be read after he died, so this allegory is meant to be shifted to the point when you are so fucked up from disabilitated degenerative diseases that place a man on his back to the point where he cannot even fetch food to make it thru the next weak. So I am there on my back with frozen shoulders, & Jesus says reach out and touch me, so I put my fucked up arm in the air, because Jesus is up there now, no longer walking the Earth. & I have full comprehension that Pilates is exercise while in a horizontal position. On my back, with my hand up in the air, with my arm free from gravity - I was able to do small motions with my arm, that nurses my fucked up arm to health. Yeah it took months, but it came back, & it came back because of that Jesus Pilates healing spell.

Now you bring an interesting point that so many writers contradict each other in the bible, & you haven't gotten to the point of infirmity where the Bible begins to make sense yet, but I am just saying just because you can't see the value in it doesn't mean that it isn't valuable. I am not trying to convert anyone, & I am not religious at all, but this is not to say that scripture is worthless. Life is like a street corner in the night where something amazing just happened a moment before, & the young like you come up after the crowd has cleared, & you say nothing happened here. This is the wisdom that you contain, a man incredulous because of temporal inexperience. There are so many Bible bashers on this site, or any holy book for that matter, it is juvenile for people whose knees have recently been healed over from being skinned in childhood to discount any relevance in or applicability in documentation that takes different states of mind to receive the message of, where you haven't even been initiated by life yet, loss of a great love, loss of a career, loss of your father or mother, or loss of the self from being mystified by the false simplistic projection of life.