I dont know how much longer i can do this. pretend everything is okay. when i know that deep down inside he could careless about me. he fell in love with my best friends jail bait sister. he promised that i (along with) his family would be the 1st person he wrote in basic. well his mom just told me that he has wrote some girl. the girl wasnt me. ive waited for 3 weeks checking the mail 5 pm every day. go to sleep at night crying on our teddy bear. i guess it doesnt matter. he doesnt want a girl that tempts him even when not trying to. i cant help that my body is made for sex. but he could get over that. i love him. he said he loved me also promised hed never brake up with me. i guess there isnt anyone i can trust anymore. i can tell today is going to be a FUCKED UP day