So at 5:57am today i turned 17.
The age itself isn’t a big deal to me..
Nor is the fact it’s my birthday really..
But i changed my facebook settings last night to see who would remember (hid my birthday)
List of people who’ve said Happy Birthday without me mentioning it to them:
My parents. Kerry. Alex. Natalie. ..and then Ookie but she’s 3 minutes younger than me.
My boyfriend kinda forgot but i’ve not been with him very long and i don’t think i ever mentioned the date to him so he doesn’t count..
My Grandad forgot.. but he’s old so it’s okay.
I’ve already cried a fair bit today.. like always. I always cry on my birthday.
I guess i just feel like shit because i’m alone right now. I’ve been very very lonely all day even when i’ve been with people.
And loads of people are saying happy birthday to Ookie (she has it on facebook) but we’ve always made a big deal about joking that our birthday is the same day.. i guess nobody really picked up on it.
It’s not a big deal.. it’s only a birthday.. There’s just so much more shit going on in my life and it’s this one little thing that’s getting to me and pushing me to feel even worse.
Hardly anyone remembered.