omg im soo excited, i pierced it yesterday!
its so friggin great!
i was so scared i thought itd hurt like a bitch, it seriously doesnt hurt at all i hurt less than getting my ears pierced with a gun!!
and i still dont feel it!
i cant have sex for 2 weeks which sucks but im not in a relationship n e more so its okay. (that reminds me i need to update this profile)
but yeah its soo friggin awesome!
if ur chicken to do it, no need to be!
but yea! YAY me!
lol i had my best friend take pics that was so weird, along with the fact that my HOT FRIEND pierced it for me, quite awkward! but soo much fun!

Your Looking at Hardcore's Newest Junkie LMAO
gawd where have i been?
under a rock?!
this stuff kicks ass WOOT lmao

okay so yeah fer the past couple days ive been having alot of pains in my stomach and i wasnt shure whut it was cuz i was shure i miscarried my last baby, wasnt a big period, but you can still be pregnant and have a period
but no...i looked up whut i thought it could be and shure enuff this came up

http://www.drmalpani.com/book/chapter19.html

tubal pregnancy, im so scared, cuz if it ruptures it decreases my chances of getting pregnant significantly

im going to the Teen Health Centre tomorrow after school to find out whut it is exactly.

god im so scared, and im sooo not telling my bf, he didnt even really kno i was pregnant in the 1st place, i told him i MIGHT be but he doesnt listen(typical boy)

anywho wish me luck

-Midget

he kills me slowly
a line at a time
just pull the trigger
and get it over with

well i just got finished talking to rob and i poured part of my heart out to him, i miss him so much, he feels that the distance is gonna break us apart cuz im having a hard tyme dealing with it, but wouldnt you if youve only been going out with your bf for a month and a half and havent seen him in almost a month!
aparently its really been getting to him as well hes been depressed lately about not seeing me:(
but he said hes got sum deals to make this weekend and that he'll stop buy for a couple hours which will be really friggin nice for a change i miss him, i just need a kiss to get me threw a couple more weeks. my main problem with this realtionship is that i cant physically FEEL his love, i kno he loves me, but i dont feel it, cuz i cant kiss him, or hug him or anything and its killing me!
but i get my apartment in like 15 days, and he said he'll be over ALOT which is good too, i jsut which he would make an effort to see me now!
well anyway ive gotta go,
toodlez yall
Rob+Mel=<3

Well i finally got to talk to Stein (andrew, my "ex") today, i havent herd from him in like a month, i thought he died, but hes good. hes excited about me going to see him this summer(in Calgary), which will be nice for shure!
hes got all this stuff planned, i guess im like the only one outa all his friends in windsor whos planning to see him and still talks to him. oh well more stein for me.
even tho i have a new guy in my life(rob:D) i still miss stein, i only got to be with him for 3 months or so, but i started to fall in love with him, and he fell in love with me(by the way hes 27...shhh dont tell my mom lol) anywho, him and i were never officially dating but we spent all our time together, i almost had his kid, but i miscarried, stupid stress!
but yeah so we went threw alot so i cant help but miss him, hes FINALLY getting the pics of him and i, on the beach during sunset, with my best friend and his best friend(who were also a couple) but yeah and hes got a digi cam, hes gonna send me a whole bunch of pics soon im sooo excited:D aparently my tree hugging hippy got really buff im sooo curious, well anywho toodlez for now

...Guess not!
well last night my bf's mom finally lifted his grounding so he was online and then told me to call him
(its been like 2 weeks since ive had a decient convo with him)
we talked for like over 3 hours it was amazing!

he promised awhile ago that he would be in windsor today to take me to my dads grave, but since he was grounded i figured that was off, so i went on.
but last night, he told me that his brother was prolly comming to windsor today and that he would go with him so i could hang out with him and go to my dads grave(by the way he died 2 years ago today)

turns out he was going to amhurstburg, so he couldnt come here, its soo crappy, cuz i was looking forward to closure on my dads passing, i just cant go by myself and wanted him to go with me on a certain occasion, ut it can wait i guess

gawd i miss him i wish he weere here right now, well gtg hes online for a bit byee
~Midget~

okay so ive been waiting for my aunts landlord to kick out the tenant who live in the basement apartment of this house since like october!

he claims he has send her the warning of eviction twice, yet never followed threw with the final paperwork, i was getting really pissed i mean like common how long can i sleep on a fucking couch and pretty much live out of a box..all i had was clothes, i had nothing else becuase it all in storage! and so i had to buy more grr, any way

we've(my aunt and i) have been waiting for this chick to get out for months! and she hasent left she hasent paid rent and shes a disturbance!

well finally my aunt got fed up and filed the warning papers her self and well the tenant came upstairs today and said she was gonna be out on tuesday which is the 31st.

so obviously the fucking landlord was lieing about sending her the papers.

So im really excited. but my aunt told me not to get my hopes up cuz shes said b4 that she was gonna movie, but shes never gotten the warning, so i think she'll leave she owes about 2000$ plus damages(there are ALOT)

So Yeah im in the precess of emailing my BF the good news(hes moving in with me and away from his mom) shes horrible, hes been grounded fer like 2-3 weeks and i cant even talk to him unless he checks his email when his mom is asleep its SOOOO GAY!

But he'll be outa there soon.

Oh and also if the tenant doesnt move out, the notice states that she has 14 days and then the real evition papers come out, if she doesnt appeal it then shes outta there 5 days from the date of the final evitcion papers, my aunts pretty shure she wont appeal considering she owes soooo much money.

So if i dont get in there next week, the latest date im looking at is the 17th of Feb. Which isnt bad, but its still a bit off.

Either way IM fucking excited!

yay! i took pretty pics today...check em out if u wanna!
lemmie kno whut u think

Well here we go again, 2nd pregnancy, second baby lost. tho i was only a couple weeks pregnant, it still sucks and its upsetting, this one wasnt as hard to deal with as the 1st one. but thats just cause im a little more emotionally capable of dealing with it.
I think i should really go to the doctors to find out why this keeps happening...but im scared ill get told ill never be able to carry a baby full term.
Well either way I cant wait to have a baby, whenever my body will let me, my mind will be ready!