Sitting, thinking, wondering; how often I do so.
Pondering things that no one, no matter how, would know.
Have you evre felt as though you were a void in everyone's life?
If not, then you wouldn't know my feelings of confusion, hatred, and strife.

I know that I don't have it bad, my life is reather good and prosperous.
The feelings and thoughts that I have, though, make me feel preposterous.
I am not seeking attentionor special care of any sort.
But my feelings of belonging and happiness have been cut abruptly short.

Years of being taunted, teased, and made fun of have finally caught up with me.
My random sadness and quiet spells are not something that everyone will see.
I am not always so sad; for every sad moment, there is an equally happy one.
But there has been many times in my life when I wanted to live in darkness and never see the sun.

Apathy, rage, depression; there has been many times where I wish I wasn't alive.
But I pursue life, in hopes of findingsomething in which I can thrive.
To explain how I feel, and for you to understand it, you might as well read the entire dictionarywithin a single day.
How I wish to find someone to tell my feelings to and have them understand everything that I have to say.

I wish to be fully happy in life; how I wish to feel as though my meaning was real.
The cause of these words are not of what you think; I just wanted to express how I feel.
I wish that I could please all in my life, but I know now that that is not possible.
I am who I am, but if I have to change who I am to please all, that would not be plausable.

Sometimes I want to live, sometimes I want to die; my feelings are always a mixture.
I just wish in life to have my own place, my own fixture.
But I don't want to be the same as all; I just want to be accpeted for who I am.
After living my life, seeing all that I have seen, I can finally see that no one really gives a damn.

Do you think that you know me? Or that you understand all that I have come to be?
Try me, and we shall see what you have to say of my entity.
Regardless of who you are, I wouldn't change who I am in all the eternity.
Do you think that you can comprehand what is before you to see?