I once yearned for purpose,
A chance to achieve,
To do whatever I desired,
In myself I did believe.

But the world was cruel,
And shattered was my hope,
To the future I then did look,
In the belief I’d find someway to cope.

I followed my heart further,
Believing it would lead,
To something more fulfilling,
A much more meaningful deed.

But reality caught up with me,
And I did then realise,
That love be just another distraction,
To experience before my demise.

With my mind against me all the way,
I looked to a more purposeful goal,
I now long to be free from everything,
Something I feel will save my soul.

here she lie,
next to my heart,
says she loves me,
it tears me apart.

i see her smile,
it makes me cry,
she doesnt believe me,
without her i'd die.

she leaves for a while,
i begin to fade away,
i want her near me,
but i know she'll never stay.

i pretend that she loves me,
it gets me through my life,
she doesn't understand how i feel,
i'd love her to be my wife.

i cower behind these lies,
live my life in a fantasy,
forgetting that i'm nothing,
when i return to reality.

i tell myself i'll leave,
that i've nothing to fear,
but without you my angel,
i would soon dissapear.

now i must stop,
i can't carry on,
without your love,
my whole life is wrong...