It seems like just yesturday that the pain filled this body, thats because it was, it consumes me over and over day to day, the pain of losing the one i wished to be there all my life. Did losing her change me, did it it make or break me. It made me weaker but yet at the same time made me stronger. It seemed to have ended my life, but started it over. With all these opposites I can say it was the best thing and the worst thing that ever happened to me, I will forever miss her and long to hold her again like I did once apon a time. But she is gone, no reversal, no takebacks, no saving it. Its over

She will never fully understand the amount of love I hold for her. I have it hidden behind these eyes. Little does she know, she is the reason for these tears, I wish I could hear her say one more time that she loves me. I took her heart and discarded it only to want it back in a moments time. Little did I know of the destruction I would cause to bring two lives to a stand still. In the end, little did we know.