I'm your problem not mine Dru Kay
Is it human nature to question everything if so god how can there be a hell for non-believers?
If we are made in your image and get punished for disbelief them are you not the ultimate deceiver?
If ignorance is bliss then I will take the pain of knowledge
I will always strive forward, of you though I will never acknowledge.
To me, I must follow what I believe true, while rejecting all the bullocks and it just so happens that it includes you.
Preachers fill the mouth of god with their sugar-coated lies, I can't wait til they get judged at the gates by peter for their wasted lives.
Am I a sinner or am I a saint, be I evil or good?
does it matter or will I burn?
To these questions I have one answer, I will smoke my cigarettes eat my chocolate I will do all those fun things that, due to your theoretical hypocracy you never will!
Luffy's Poetry
Life Or Death
Gathered here to fight this sadness.
As a whole we're kind & giving,
Togethor we survive a life that's unforgiving.
Our new life is completely freeing,
A paradox of our past full of drugs & stealing.
All ages, races, sexs, & creeds,
A desire to stay clean is our only requirement for release.
Some go out while others stay,
Some are dry while others pray.
So my life is what I make of it,
Somtimes are miserable while others I'm giddy as shit.
Every day sober is a life giving breath,
If i choose to use then I'm choosing death!
Self Loathing
Now my soul is as blue as my hair,
Trapped in an abyss of my deepest despair.
Shutting down all my receptors & rebuilding all my reflectors.
Turning down all conversation why can I not accept some form of placation,
Drained & exhausted, Sick & tired out side my eyes are dry but inside i am crying Rivers,
Weeping torents of the deepest red
At the end of the day it is for nothing but still i was bled
Let me I beg of you make it through this day
For of this place I still need to stay
How is it even possible to be into this much pain yet still be so numb
Mabye its because I am just dumb.
Transexual Pains
Overwhelmed & Hurting now both my head & heart do drop.
This pain i feel is a constant reminder to me that I'm clean,
The joy in me leaks through a hole in my soul in a endless stream.
I bear my scars both mind & body open for all to see,
My chords get pulled though i let them in my dream like life,
Most of those days in my life are filled with naught but strife.
To break these bonds then be myself is my one desire,
Now it seems that all my actions raise the worlds dark ire.
Through the pain, Through the blood I strive to do whats right.
Everything i try to do draw's this noose down tight.
Cleave my heart like you cleaved my soul you've thrown me in this hole,
Another time I've been double crossed now each name has one red tack.
Damnit people i have no more room for all these knives in my back.
Through my life I have taken several poisons & overdosed on meth,
Through it all I prayed daily for my premature death.
I didnt ask to be what i am. I didnt ask for the pain,
Everyday I'm reminded that my life's gone down the drain.
Though at times I am overwhelmed then brought to my knees,
That pain I feel makes those times i feel joy a life giving breeze.
Crushing pain Crushing hearts
Dead & worthless dead & gone,
Watch my soul go feel my pulse stop.
Hear my screams & feel my pain,
See my blood run red then watch my skin turn blue.
The pain i feel now you will to,
Through my death i have put this curse on you.
The joy i felt is long gone,
Faded away like each sad song.
So burn this body down to ash.
But before my cremation cut open my chest, with mouth's agape you see that my hearts been ripped out.
Anorexia, Drugs & Masochism all of these are my addiction,
Through the help of all those so called friends, I've lost all my conviction.
Watch my soul go feel my pulse stop.
Hear my screams & feel my pain,
See my blood run red then watch my skin turn blue.
The pain i feel now you will to,
Through my death i have put this curse on you.
The joy i felt is long gone,
Faded away like each sad song.
So burn this body down to ash.
But before my cremation cut open my chest, with mouth's agape you see that my hearts been ripped out.
Anorexia, Drugs & Masochism all of these are my addiction,
Through the help of all those so called friends, I've lost all my conviction.
Used & Abused
It wasnt until 17 that i hit first base.
I feel all alone lost in my head,
In so much pain that i wonder if i really would'nt be better off dead.
Being yelled at for no reason,
Treated like I've commited a treason.
What have I done to deserve this i ask?
And if this is all there is should I just give up and pack?
Leave me alone stop messing with my head as I lay down sick and depressed on my bed...
So just leave me be this just isnt what I need....
Shoot me please & get this done,
After all you're the only one holding that gun!
Close your eyes while you pull the trigger cuz if you must then you must,
I am the only person you can trust.
I've had a good run, but its come to the end.
It's come time for me to take that final lap 'round the bend.
I just dont want to be lonely anymore,
It seems that my hearts up for sale in a dollar store.
So it's time for goodbye... oh and by the way dont be sad when I die.
Hell Bent On Suffering
So slam all the nails on home sew up the wounds make me moan show me that I am worthless show me ill never have bliss (chorus x2)
While i live i will hurt bash in my head shove my face in the dirt close the lid on the casket show no one my face it matter not now that im gone from this place. (chorus)
Creativities Light
The Creativity in my heart,
I now let it out to be a part.
So be free and be yourself,
Lest you get filed on the shelf.
All things have a lifeforce,
I finally see this and can follow this course.
All i drew and all i wrote was already here for those who can see,
Shut your mouth and clear your mind put pen to paper as things should be.
I now let it out to be a part.
So be free and be yourself,
Lest you get filed on the shelf.
All things have a lifeforce,
I finally see this and can follow this course.
All i drew and all i wrote was already here for those who can see,
Shut your mouth and clear your mind put pen to paper as things should be.
Day Dreams Of Angel's
As I lay down dreaming of you,
I pray to god that this love is true.
After a life filled with naught but fear,
This joyous feeling brings me to tears.
I would give my life for one night in your arms,
It is only with you that I feel no alarm.
This is only for you hun, I know that you are the one.
I pray to god that this love is true.
After a life filled with naught but fear,
This joyous feeling brings me to tears.
I would give my life for one night in your arms,
It is only with you that I feel no alarm.
This is only for you hun, I know that you are the one.
I'll Survive
The fear it eats me alive, but still im more than willing to survive.
With every fight I'm in it just feels even more wrong, but you know I'll never give in I must be strong.
I see your face on T.V. one day we will be free.
Every day i wish you well, I feel myself burning in hell.
Though this road is long and certainly hard, I will fight my way to be back in the stars.
The weight of the world bears me down, but still you know like hell i wont bow.
You know that I'll always live, though my happiness i will not give.
With every fight I'm in it just feels even more wrong, but you know I'll never give in I must be strong.
I see your face on T.V. one day we will be free.
Every day i wish you well, I feel myself burning in hell.
Though this road is long and certainly hard, I will fight my way to be back in the stars.
The weight of the world bears me down, but still you know like hell i wont bow.
You know that I'll always live, though my happiness i will not give.