I GOT MY HEADTEACHER TO LISTEN TO ME ABOUT BULLYING.
FUCKING FINALLY.
HE LISTENED TO SOMEONE.
Sick of This Stupid Girl Suit.
The thousands of reasons Sakky hates humanity, including herself.
Think i Handled That Well.
From a friend's picture on FB.
Brandon Campbell:
wow, Dylan your picture makes you look queer.
5 shots o' rum ago · Arr!
Sakky ThePirate:
..okay FIRST of all, what exactly is wrong with homosexuality? So what if someone LOOKS camp/gay and what if they ARE gay? How does it effect your life? Hmm? Ohh look it doesn't. It doesn't effect your LIFE, nor your RIGHTS. Infact, you're one of those sad little people who will bash gays and then run home to watch lesbian porn aren't you? I bet you fucking are. So just think about what you say next time you wanna insult someone and use homosexuality as an insult. GAY IS NOT A SYNONYM FOR SHITTY. Secondly, it is my little pony. Your arguement against MLP is fucking INVALID so crawl back under your rock.
Brandon Campbell:
wow, Dylan your picture makes you look queer.
5 shots o' rum ago · Arr!
Sakky ThePirate:
..okay FIRST of all, what exactly is wrong with homosexuality? So what if someone LOOKS camp/gay and what if they ARE gay? How does it effect your life? Hmm? Ohh look it doesn't. It doesn't effect your LIFE, nor your RIGHTS. Infact, you're one of those sad little people who will bash gays and then run home to watch lesbian porn aren't you? I bet you fucking are. So just think about what you say next time you wanna insult someone and use homosexuality as an insult. GAY IS NOT A SYNONYM FOR SHITTY. Secondly, it is my little pony. Your arguement against MLP is fucking INVALID so crawl back under your rock.
Well then..
Oh, it appears i'm with Taidgh..
WOO THREE WEEK TRIAL!!
WOO THREE WEEK TRIAL!!
22/02/13
Saw him today.. killed me.
Yet here i am, alive.
Fuck yes Sakky, YOU'RE ALIVE.
Yet here i am, alive.
Fuck yes Sakky, YOU'RE ALIVE.
20/02/13
Kerry is alive and home, but i hated being in the hospital.. especially cause i can't stand being near Dionne.
It isn't her fault, but it just hurts.
Joni shouted at me today (remember this Sakky. REMEMBER why you were crying on the stairs)
Aaron hasn't messaged me all day then i got "hey" around 40 minutes ago..
And i'm hurting cause Kieran should be spending the weekend with ME not Dionne..
I just wish he atleast missed me..
I'm a mess. Such a fucking mess.
Everything around me is fucked..
Fucked.. fucked.. fucked..
About half an hour after i posted this.. ^ :
Dionne tried to OD.. now Kerry.. I'm always the one who tries to fix things.. even when i never fucked them.. always fucking me. And people say i can talk to them but it's so damn hard when i'm this far gone.. so now i have 2 friends who've recently tried to die.. a boyfriend who also wants to die.. but no. I HAVE to stay. Everyone always fucking tells me i NEED to stay.. WHY THE FUCK SHOULD I?! What because people "need" me to fucking fix all the broken things in their lives?! They need to to FIX things.. they don't need me just cause i'm sakky.. They say they do but they don't.. I don't even know who the FUCK sakky is anymore because nothing makes sense, everything hurts and i'm tired of wanting to die. I'm tired of fighting against EVERYTHING and having MORE shit thrown at me.. i can't fucking COPE with all this.. i am DONE with trying to convince myself i'm "strong".. and i'm FINISHED with lying to myself about being ANY inspiration to fucking ANYBODY at all. :'/
It isn't her fault, but it just hurts.
Joni shouted at me today (remember this Sakky. REMEMBER why you were crying on the stairs)
Aaron hasn't messaged me all day then i got "hey" around 40 minutes ago..
And i'm hurting cause Kieran should be spending the weekend with ME not Dionne..
I just wish he atleast missed me..
I'm a mess. Such a fucking mess.
Everything around me is fucked..
Fucked.. fucked.. fucked..
About half an hour after i posted this.. ^ :
Dionne tried to OD.. now Kerry.. I'm always the one who tries to fix things.. even when i never fucked them.. always fucking me. And people say i can talk to them but it's so damn hard when i'm this far gone.. so now i have 2 friends who've recently tried to die.. a boyfriend who also wants to die.. but no. I HAVE to stay. Everyone always fucking tells me i NEED to stay.. WHY THE FUCK SHOULD I?! What because people "need" me to fucking fix all the broken things in their lives?! They need to to FIX things.. they don't need me just cause i'm sakky.. They say they do but they don't.. I don't even know who the FUCK sakky is anymore because nothing makes sense, everything hurts and i'm tired of wanting to die. I'm tired of fighting against EVERYTHING and having MORE shit thrown at me.. i can't fucking COPE with all this.. i am DONE with trying to convince myself i'm "strong".. and i'm FINISHED with lying to myself about being ANY inspiration to fucking ANYBODY at all. :'/
19/02/13
Kerry tried to overdose.
Aaron nearly hung himself.
I'm a fucking mess.
Aaron nearly hung himself.
I'm a fucking mess.
Aaron
None of these ever make any sense to anyone but i don't keep diaries and i guess it's a good way to remind myself of things..
Uhm..
Aaron sent me 3 of his original songs.. and he covered Don't Stop Believing.. because i asked for a song that reminded him of us..
I shake everytime i listen to him sing..
He is honestly the best thing that has ever happened in my life because he's stayed by my for 4 fucking years.
I'd be so lost without him..
He understands everything about me.. everything.
And i look like absolout shit, and he still calls me beautiful.
I might get to see him this year.. i really hope i do..
He's my oldest friend.. my closest friend..
I love him, even when he's in the darkest part of his mind.
16/2/13.
Also.. i've started to date these because my memory problem is getting worse and if i date these not only do i know what happened and when, i have some record of my feelings and my survival.
Uhm..
Aaron sent me 3 of his original songs.. and he covered Don't Stop Believing.. because i asked for a song that reminded him of us..
I shake everytime i listen to him sing..
He is honestly the best thing that has ever happened in my life because he's stayed by my for 4 fucking years.
I'd be so lost without him..
He understands everything about me.. everything.
And i look like absolout shit, and he still calls me beautiful.
I might get to see him this year.. i really hope i do..
He's my oldest friend.. my closest friend..
I love him, even when he's in the darkest part of his mind.
16/2/13.
Also.. i've started to date these because my memory problem is getting worse and if i date these not only do i know what happened and when, i have some record of my feelings and my survival.
Hello Blog
Well it got worse, he's with her.
And i'm better now (it's 15/02/13 future me.. ) than what i was..
people have helped a lot.
Page is gonna be more active..
Gonna be awesome.. i just.. need someone.
And i'm better now (it's 15/02/13 future me.. ) than what i was..
people have helped a lot.
Page is gonna be more active..
Gonna be awesome.. i just.. need someone.
Uhm.
Been a fucking while since i posted a blog.
My life is a mess right now.
I want to say every little thing but i cant.
This is really just here to mark this point of my life as a wreck,
so i can look back on it when i'm better.
3/2/13.
My life is a mess right now.
I want to say every little thing but i cant.
This is really just here to mark this point of my life as a wreck,
so i can look back on it when i'm better.
3/2/13.
FUCK.
I am SO sick of Tom..
I've put up witht his shit for SO DAMN LONG and when he FINALLY boots Ellie out of his life i think i've got my friend back.. and you know.. christmas day, i did.
But now.. he's gone back to the insults.. back to making me feel worthless.
He claims he doesn't need anyone.. yet he always runs to me when he needs help..
And the other times he treats me like SHIT.
WHY CANT I HAVE DECENT FRIENDS?!
And i stick around because im the only one left..
..and i'm, like he said, "a stupid slut" because i i'm letting him hurt me..
but i just want my best friend back..
I've put up witht his shit for SO DAMN LONG and when he FINALLY boots Ellie out of his life i think i've got my friend back.. and you know.. christmas day, i did.
But now.. he's gone back to the insults.. back to making me feel worthless.
He claims he doesn't need anyone.. yet he always runs to me when he needs help..
And the other times he treats me like SHIT.
WHY CANT I HAVE DECENT FRIENDS?!
And i stick around because im the only one left..
..and i'm, like he said, "a stupid slut" because i i'm letting him hurt me..
but i just want my best friend back..