Deeper and deeper I drown in self pity

Suffocating on life, so rancid and shitty

Waking up in the morning is like swallowing sand

Just to drag my feet through another day, so boring and bland

Choking back tears without the strength to cry

I wish my body would give in, give up and just die



Every week my world crumbles and shatters

And I’m left falling trying to remember what matters

All the days are the same, like dragged out bad dreams

And I’m left falling apart, trying to keep together the seams

Watching silently with a scream caught in my throat

Hoping when I let it out my lungs will cave in and I’ll choke



Sometimes it’s like I’m the only one lying

Got a smile on my face but inside I’m crying

If I have a skip in my step it’s ‘coz I have a thorn in my side

If I’m coughing up dust it’s ‘coz I just swallowed my pride

Everyone’s at the finish line and I’m stuck at the start

Kneeling over a grave ‘coz I’ve just buried my heart



Somehow I can still hear myself speak

Amazed that my voice isn’t shaky and weak

One morning I’ll wake up and it’ll be like swallowing cream

And I’ll smile when I realize it’s all just been a bad dream

Hello there new friend

It’s good to see you today

Are you still searching for what you’re looking for

Or did you throw the map away

Is that a shimmer in your eyes

A smile tugging at your lips

Are you finally rising new friend

After all these hard taking dips



Is that a glow on your skin

A new purpose to your soul

Have you found the strength to climb new friend

Out that deep and darkened hole

I am happy now old friend

That you can now turn and face me

Somehow I knew old friend

That you could not completely erase me



Is that a smile I see

Could you still be my own reflection

I am proud of us new friend

For you I have now learnt affection

Will you take my hand old friend

And come out from behind those walls

We will pick each other up new friend

When one of us stumbles and falls

I take comfort in your words

When I cannot take safety in your arms

I take refuge in your memory

Until my yearning for you calms

My heart calls out to you

Reaching for your love

My tears stream down for you

Cursing the distance and those above


So that time is upon us

The time we could not help but dread

That time were I lie awake at night, crying

Coz the memory of you is still so fresh in my head

When I can remember how you smelt

When you held me so tightly against your chest

When I can still picture your smile

As it was my cheek that you caressed


Then when I awake

And realize you are no longer here

I wish with all my heart

That this distance and these tears would clear

As I lay down

This paper and this pen

I close my eyes to dream of you

Until I may see you again

It’s so strange how different things are
When you take a step back and view them from afar
It’s so strange how different people can be
When you shackle their wrists and tell them they’re free
It’s so strange how little men talk big
And men with no hair take such pride in a wig

It’s strange how with a look a room can seem colder
And how some people grow up, but others just get older
It’s strange how people get offended when they misunderstand your meaning
When you can smile to the face of that person, when underneath you’re seething
It’s strange how we can say something and then forget that we said it
Go against something but in the face of your enemy defend it

It’s strange how people pretend they are wise
But then ignore the consequences of what they advise
It’s strange how people claim humans have the higher power
Abuse it, take over, destroy and devour
It’s strange how we hate what we choose not to understand
How we blame the people around us, when things don’t go as we planned

It’s strange how so many things make so little sense
How we miss so many chances ‘coz we’re always on the defence

It’s hard to understand when your world’s being ripped apart

When none of it makes sense ‘coz it doesn’t feel right in your heart

With the words you say of how it was, but won’t ever be the same

When it’s your mother and your father and they’re both playing ball with the blame



When it slowly starts sinking in, all that your gonna loose

Like you’re playing eye-spy and weren’t given any clues

How many broken sentences before you fill in the question marks

How much more blood in the water before you’ve called all the sharks



How many nights of screaming before it’s just that eerie silence

How many more poisoned words that are just 3 steps from , yes sir, your highness

When will it all make sense and you won’t have to sleep alone

When will it all come back and you won’t have to listen to the echo’s of a broken home



When will that damaged picture frame find its proper place

When will a smile fall again upon your dark and sadden face

When will you finally decide that you cannot take it anymore

When will your heart rest in your chest

And not discarded and forgotten on the floor



It’s hard to comprehend when your world’s been ripped apart

When none of it makes sense ‘coz you’ve stopped listening to your heart.

And there I stretched out my hand

To catch you as you fell

To shine the light upon your face

As we found where the monsters dwell



What we cannot kill

With our swords in hand

We’ll kill with our fearful courage

As we take our final stand



Deep in the darkest caves

Of our haunted mind

We run in search of answers

To the glorious things we find



The monsters that hide inside of me

Are these all that I could be

Will they listen to what I hear

Will they push my greatest fear

With each passing day

And each monster that we slay

With these subconscious strings that bind us together

Every day I must fight this fight

Now and forever

It’s a sad world

Where no one believes in love

No matter how much you pray to the lord above

Your Dad don’t like him

And your Mom won’t stand to see you in his arms



He stands at your window in the dim moon light

You sneak out to avoid a fight

All you wanna do is be with him

But your parents say their death is the only way you’ll win

You cry yourself to sleep

No use trying to count the sheep

He’s the only thing on your mind



You scream at your parents that they’re wrong

And soon it’ll be too late ‘coz you’ll be too far gone

You lock your door and write him a letter

Telling him that there’s no one better

He’s the only one for you

Of you can’t be with him, death will have to do



You sign the letter with a kiss

Blow out the candle with one last wish

That in death you’ll finally be together

‘Coz you know you’ve got the kind of love that will last for ever

He finds out that you’re dead, he can’t live

He’d rather die and be with you instead

Now your parents have two deaths on their hands

Moral of the story, true love should never be band

I have this image in my head

It's you and I together

We're so inlove, you hold me tight

And we're happy knowing that this might not be forever

That look in you eyes tells a thousand stories of love lost

And the scars on your walls tell of a thousand ways that you payed the cost


I'm sorry that I know that I could never heal you

You're so hidden away, but somehow I still manage to feel you

Some night I wish you would tell me your tale

and then see it as a lesson , and not as your greatest fail

Sometimes i wish i could atleast ease the pain

Wash the salt out your wounds and the colour out the blood stain


What if you wrote all your fears down in a story book

And dropped it down the crack as the earth rumbled and shook

Then what if you told those monsters to piss off from underneath your bed

And then relaxed and listened to the thoughts running through your head

So what if you made friends with who you are inside

And for once let him smile, after all those tears he's cried...

You keep telling the world you're still tryna find your only imperfection
And I'm standing there tryna hold back my filthy correction
To you the world is all pink ponys, rainbows and glitter
And in your mind you'll never grow old fat and bitter
You always put yourself in the middle of whatever's going on
With all your talk and pretty smiles you don't know whats really wrong

To you you're everything twice over perfected
And its only the little people who are ever really rejected
If they're not talking about you, your hair or nails you want nothing to do with the conversation
If they're not showering you with compliments or red roses they're nothing but an irritation

So flash her some money honey and she's yours for the taking
You're the best at what you do, and in love you're the number 1 for faking
With you mini skirt , high heels and ridiculously tight top
No room for imagination, you're really showing off all you've got
So how much make up does it take to cover up that only imperfection
Are you ever gonna realize that it was you who gave yourself that one time only rejection

So when are you gonna fall off those high heels and tumble back down to earth
When are you gonna grow up and face what it is you're really worth

So here we stand

Hand in hand, watching the world hurry by

Everyone so busy and stressed out and we're left wondering why

Bumping and shoving, screaming at each other to get out the way

And we're left standing here watching this frightening play


Hold tight my hand little brother

don't let your hand slip out of mine

Hold tight my hand little brother

and everything will be just fine

Where is she big sister? I want to go to mommy

Hold tight my hand little brother

We'll find her soon don't worry


So here we are, we are running

Running past people, under people, with just one thing we are hunting

We see people pushed to the side and thrown to the ground

We run into a blocked street, don't cry, we'll have to go around


Hurry little brother

We have to keep going

Look ahead little brother

The light at the end of the tunnel has begun glowing

There she is little brother

Our other we've found you

Don't cry little brother

We're safe now, after everything we've been through