I'm so sick of all this
I can't keep going on like this
I'm tired of feeling worthless
I'm tired of feeling like I'm wrong
This life isn't what I wanted
This isn't where I want to be
I want to be normal
I want to be free
Everything I do is wrong
All I see are lies
I can't keep being this way
I can't keep dying inside
I want to be dead
I want to leave this life
I feel like I'm no one
I feel like all I do is cause everyone pain
I'm not worth all this fuss
I'm worth nothing
I always cause problems
Just from the words of my mouth
Just from the thoughts in my head
I wish I'd be removed from this life
For I'm better of dead
Hate is all that motivates everyone in my life
I'm not allowed to be happy
In my miserable life
I wish I was able to be be that one
That everyone wants me to be
I'm so tired of everything
I'm wish I can just be let be
I want to fade to black
Never open my eyes again
For I want my eternal death
Then I wouldn't say, do or think that someone would need to forgive
I want out of this life
But no such luck
It seems I'm forever stuck

I feel empty
I feel lost
This just isn't me
I used to be happy
I used to have hope
What happened
Who have I become
Who made me this way
I just wish the screams would go away
I wish the suicidal thoughts would go away
I hate who I am
I hate who I've become
I can't breathe around anyone
I feel like I'm being suffocated
The sadness is too strong
The black heart I have
Is who I've become
I try to be normal
I try to be who I was
I fight within myself
But the darkness has won
There is no going back
There is no who I was
For I have become this empty
Shelled person with the black
Darkness within my heart and soul
I have loved I have lost
But nothing seems to fix me
There is no quick fix
For I am forever broken
And forever stuck like this

Having no feelings
Feeling betrayed
Wanting all these emotions
To just go the fuck away
I hate being me
I hate how I keep feeling
I can't keep going on like this
Feeling lost in the distance
I can't breath suffocating over my thoughts
Suffocating over my dreams
Hoping to have a life of happiness
But all I see is misery
I thought I was someone
I thought I could be the one
Now I finally see that all that was in my dreams
I'm better off alone better off dead
Hating how all this shit goes to my head
Happiness is a forgiven thought that's only in my head
Only in my dreams
Thought love was perfect but in the end
It's just disappointment
Breaking hearts breaking thoughts
Turning more and more black every second of the day
Dimmer and dimmer i draw throughout the day
Trapped in the darkness
Screaming and crawling my way out
No end in sight no way out

Feeling so lost
Feeling so dead
Falling apart as the days come to pass
Trying to make it through the day feels like thousands of knives tearing into my unfortunate soul
Life is so empty
Thoughts of dark temptation race threw the demented mind of the lost
For i am lost and my soul is drained of all life
I am all alone to walk this agonizing path
All alone to drown in the unforgiven sea of anguish and distraught
The end of all times is in the forseen future as i lay slowly dying from all this
Drowning in the despair of tears
Trying to come up for air
Yet no surface to reach
Sadness has been the only thing keeping the light going
Yet the light just keeps dimming
Rather see death than another day go by to sit in agony and grief